Secret ( Lance Stroll)

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Katie Stroll had always felt like she was living in the shadow of her younger brother, Lance. While Lance was racing in Formula 1, adored by fans and celebrated by their parents, Katie’s accomplishments seemed to fade into the background. She was successful in her own right—she had a stable career in finance, a close-knit group of friends, and a passion for writing that she pursued in her spare time—but none of it seemed to matter when compared to the bright spotlight shining on Lance.

Their relationship had never been particularly close. Growing up, their lives had diverged early on, with Lance spending most of his time on the track while Katie focused on academics. Their parents had always made it clear where their priorities lay, pouring their time, energy, and resources into Lance’s racing career. Katie tried to be supportive, but the constant comparisons and the feeling of being overlooked took a toll on her. Over time, a distance grew between them, and Katie found herself pulling away, carving out a life separate from her family.

Despite the growing gap between them, Katie kept a secret—a part of herself she had never shared with anyone, least of all her family. She had always been a private person, preferring to keep her struggles and triumphs to herself, but this secret was something she had carried alone for far too long.

Katie had been diagnosed with anxiety and depression several years ago. It had started subtly—a lingering sense of unease, a feeling of being overwhelmed by even the smallest tasks—but it had gradually grown worse. There were days when getting out of bed felt like an impossible task, when the weight of her thoughts threatened to crush her. She hid it well, maintaining a facade of normalcy in front of her colleagues, friends, and family. But inside, she was fighting a battle that no one knew about.

She had considered telling Lance about it many times, especially in the rare moments when he seemed less like the distant brother and more like the boy she had grown up with. But every time, she held back, telling herself that he wouldn’t understand—that he was too wrapped up in his own world to care about what she was going through. So she kept her secret, isolating herself even further from the people around her.

Everything changed one weekend when Katie’s carefully constructed facade began to crack. Lance had come home for a short break between races, and their parents had insisted on a family dinner. Katie, as usual, had agreed to join them, though she wasn’t looking forward to the evening of thinly veiled comparisons and subtle dismissals of her achievements. But this time, the weight of her depression was heavier than usual, making it harder to keep up appearances.

Throughout the dinner, Katie struggled to engage in the conversation. She answered questions with as few words as possible, forcing a smile whenever someone directed a comment her way. But she could feel herself slipping, the mask she wore slipping with every passing moment. By the time dessert was served, she felt like she was barely holding it together.

Lance, who had been unusually quiet himself, seemed to notice. He watched her with a frown, his usual indifferent demeanor replaced by something more concerned. But he didn’t say anything, and the dinner dragged on, the tension building between them.

When the meal was finally over, Katie excused herself quickly, desperate to escape. She made her way to the guest room where she was staying, closing the door behind her and sinking down onto the bed. The tears she had been holding back all evening finally spilled over, and she buried her face in her hands, feeling utterly alone.

She didn’t hear the door open, didn’t realize Lance had followed her until he spoke, his voice hesitant.

"Katie?"

She looked up, startled, and quickly wiped her tears away, trying to compose herself. "What do you want, Lance?" she asked, her voice sharper than she intended.

Lance hesitated in the doorway, his expression uncertain. "I just... wanted to check on you. You seemed... off tonight."

Katie forced a smile, though it didn’t reach her eyes. "I’m fine. Just tired, that’s all."

But Lance didn’t move. He studied her for a moment longer, and then, to her surprise, he stepped into the room, closing the door behind him. "No, you’re not," he said quietly, sitting down on the bed beside her. "Katie, what’s going on? I know we’re not... close, but I can tell something’s wrong."

The concern in his voice was genuine, and it caught Katie off guard. She had been so used to Lance being distant, so wrapped up in his own life, that she hadn’t expected him to notice anything wrong with her, let alone care.

For a moment, she considered brushing him off, telling him she was fine and sending him on his way. But as she looked at him, she saw something in his eyes that made her pause—something she hadn’t seen in a long time. It was the same look he used to give her when they were kids when she had scraped her knee or felt scared at night. It was concern, yes, but also a kind of protectiveness that she had forgotten he was capable of.

And in that moment, the walls she had built around herself began to crumble.

"I... I’m not okay, Lance," she admitted, her voice barely above a whisper. "I haven’t been okay for a long time."

Lance’s expression softened, and he reached out, placing a hand on her shoulder. "Katie, what’s going on? You can tell me."

The words tumbled out of her before she could stop them. She told him everything—about the anxiety, the depression, the way she had been feeling like she was drowning for years. She talked about how hard it was to keep pretending that everything was fine, how isolated she felt, even from her own family. And as she spoke, the tears flowed freely, all the pain and fear she had kept bottled up pouring out in a torrent.

Lance listened in silence, his hand never leaving her shoulder. When she finally finished, spent and exhausted, he pulled her into a tight embrace, holding her as she cried. For the first time in years, Katie allowed herself to be vulnerable, to let someone else see the pain she had been carrying.

"I’m so sorry, Katie," Lance murmured, his voice thick with emotion. "I had no idea... I should have been there for you. I’m sorry I wasn’t."

Katie shook her head, pulling back slightly to look at him. "It’s not your fault, Lance. I never told anyone... I didn’t think you’d care."

Lance’s expression tightened with guilt. "Of course I care. You’re my sister, Katie. I know I’ve been distant, and I’m sorry for that, but I’m here now. I want to help you, however I can."

Katie searched his face, seeing the sincerity in his eyes. For so long, she had felt alone, convinced that no one in her family truly cared about her struggles. But now, in this moment, she realized that maybe she had been wrong—at least when it came to Lance.

"Thank you," she whispered, her voice trembling. "I didn’t know how much I needed to hear that."

Lance gave her a small, reassuring smile. "You’re not alone, Katie. We’ll get through this together. I’ll be here for you, no matter what."

In the weeks that followed, things began to change between them. Lance became more involved in Katie’s life, checking in on her regularly, making an effort to spend more time with her. He encouraged her to seek professional help, offering to go with her to appointments if she needed the support. And slowly, with Lance by her side, Katie began to feel like she could breathe again.

Their parents were surprised by the sudden closeness between their children, but they didn’t question it, too wrapped up in their own lives to notice the deeper changes happening. But for Katie and Lance, the shift was profound. For the first time in years, they were rebuilding their bond, not as the golden child and the overlooked sibling, but as brother and sister—equals, with a shared understanding of the challenges they each faced.

Katie knew there was still a long road ahead, but she no longer felt like she had to walk it alone. With Lance by her side, she felt stronger, more capable of facing her demons. And as she looked toward the future, she realized that maybe, just maybe, she could finally step out of the shadows and into the light, with her brother there to catch her if she fell.

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