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When I wake up I'm next to him and my parents are home standing in front of us oh shit they're home early.
"Ava the fuck is going on here"
"Mom he came over to hang out"
"No he didn't Ava I know what kids your age do"
"Mom I'm not you!"
I get up going to my room Axel follows while my parents argue on how I shouldn't be allowed to have male friends he holds me while I cry telling me it's going to be alright.
THEY stop fighting and Axel goes home I stay in my room they told me that I don't need to be around Axel anymore then leave my room I stay up till 9:00 staring at the blades on my shelf thinking (I couldn't break the promise this soon) After a while I walk over grabbing them setting them on my bed I set crisscross apple sauce on my bed picking one of them up cutting my inner thighs and one across my wrist.I set the blade down walking to my bathroom getting cleaned up then going back to my bed moving the blades back.walking back to my bed I find a bandage on my desk so I grab it putting it on my wrist walking to my bed crawling in laying down falling asleep.
I WAKE up and the bandage isn't there I get dressed in a pair of leggings and a blue short sleeve top and a pair of converse I grab my backpack then walk out the door heading to school. I get to my locker and I grab my stuff for social studies I walk into the class setting it on my desk I grab the chair pulling out setting in it.
"And today we're going to be learning about the land bridge theory"
The class takes notes the bell rings on my way out I feel a hand touch my shoulder I spin around it Axel with his big hazel eyes and brown hair.
"Ava give me your hands"
My heart skips a beat but I give him my hands he flips them over revealing the cut on my wrist.
"Ava why the fuck would you do this"
"Because I...I"
I break free of his hands running to lunch I sit with my best friend hazel she is the one that I promised and as I though Axel sat on the other side of the of me he got a salad and hazel brought her lunch.
"Ava princess why just why"
"I don't know Axel I felt numb"
"Ava what is he talking about....ohh you promised me that you wouldn't"
"Well my parents got into a fight over whether or not Axel can be my friend"
I put my head down till the bell rings I have for classes left.
THE last bell rings I run to my locker setting my stuff down then grabbing my phone I feel a tear trickling down my face I see Axel and hurry up brushing past him. I get out side I'm walking home and I see him out of the corner of my eye he grabs my hand spinning me to were I was looking at him I feel a couple more tickle down my face I break free of his grasp I keep walking.I arrive at my house he is right behind me I walk into the door he runs in and I follow him he walks to my room setting on the bed with his back on my head board I take off my shirt and leggings putting on my pink Nike pros and a black oversized shirt. I crawl on top of him laying on his chest hugging him he flips us over kissing me we rapidly taking of each others clothes we are naked his body crashing into mine I love it.
"F..fuck"
Moans filled the room he rolls over I'm still on him I began to ride him he grabs my waist I bend over kissing him he comes in me after I come on him I stand up walking to my bathroom I put my clothes back on then walk out into my kitchen were I my blades in the trash and Axel at the island counter.
"Axel what the fuck"
"I can't see you like this Ava I care about you"
"Yeah well I don't know what to say except please leave!"
He leaves and I go to the living room laying on the couch I fall asleep.
"Ava I'm home!"
I run to my dad hugging him I let go
"Dad can I go to axel's please I need to talk to him?"
"Sure be back before you're mom gets home so like 7:00 tomorrow it's Saturday so you can stay if he lets you"
I walk to his house knocking on the door he answers he opens the door more so I walk in he looks sad I follow him upstairs to his room I sit on the chair in the corner. He sits on his bed.
"Axel I'm so sorry that I relapsed I felt numb and needed to feel something and thank you for throwing them away"
He stay quiet he refuses to love because every one has left him except his grandma he gets up walking up to me he squats down grabbing my face I look at him.
"Ava I love you more than anything in the world I always have"
I stay quit and climb over him walking to his bathroom locking the door sitting on the floor tracing were I carved his name in my skin and my other scars from carving his name in my skin.he still hasn't released that I have them on my inner thigh.i feel a tear trickle down my face I whip it away and get up walking to to the door unlocking it I walk over to him sitting down I scoot back a little curling my right leg up so he could see were I carved his name in my skin.
