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I stare at her thigh for about 2 minutes before getting up off my bed running my hands down my face.
"Ava why WHY I just want you out of my life for fuck sake"
She gets up walking out of my house back to hers I stay in my room contemplating whether or not I should follow but I don't so I stay in my room falling asleep.
MONDAY I walk through the doors of the school I see her she walks towards her first hour class which is social studies.
(RaiNG)
The bell rings for second period I have math with her and I sit next to her this is going to be fun I walk to my seat sitting down she sits down next to me.The teacher makes us take notes Ava raises her hand asking.
"Can I go to the bathroom"
"Yes you can"
She walks out.
IT has been 10 minutes so I ask to go to the bathroom.
"Can I please go to the bathroom"
"Yes Axel"
I get up leaving I run to the bathroom walking in to the girls I see her on the floor with a pill bottle and blood I fall to my knees in front of her
"No Ava please I love you don't die"
I feel my eyes tear up I'm crying when I pick her up walking out of the bathroom walking to the office they call the hospital.
Three days later
She woke up I stayed by her side the entire time her parents never came but once to bring me a blanket she grabs my hand.
"Axel I'm sorry"
"For what I'm the one who told you to leave my life I need to be sorry not you"
I squeeze her hand looking at her she looks at me.
"Axel get up here with me please"
"Ava I can't you have an ive in and that would hurt you more"
"Then lay on my chest"
"Fine"
I crawl between between her legs laying on her chest hugging her
"Ava I really do love you"
"I know because you do because you don't through it around loosely"
She hugs me tight
I WAKE up when I here the doctor say.
"You should be happy your girlfriend is still alive young man"
I lift my head looking at her
"I am"
She smiles and I lay my head back down while he checks her wrist they look better than when I saw them last there heeled over and she doesn't look pale anymore she has eaten half a burger and a salad I'm proud of her I crawl off her because I can tell it's hurting her.
She goes to sleep and so do I
I wake up and the doctor is talking to her I can here them talking about how long she had been cutting.
"So Ava about how long have you been cutting?"
"About 3-4 months on my thighs and 1 months on my wrist"
I sit up on the couch rubbing my hands over my face stopping at my nose then get up walking to her grabbing her hands.
"Ava is this because of me"
"No Axel it's not it's.....it's nobody's but mine"
"Ava honey please don't lie"
The doctor interrupts buy saying.
"Ava is he the name that's carved on your thigh?"
I let go walking to the corner of the room
"Yes sir"
"Why?"
"Because I love him and I wanted his name on me"
I walk out I can't hear anything else at this point I got to the boys bathroom locking it I cry it's the first time I cried since my mom died since my dad killed her and cops killed him. The last thing he told me was that it was what she got for being a hoe.I gather my self back up and walk back to Ava's room.
