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They're standing in an empty stairwell, walking toward the parking lot after filming for the day has wrapped. JJ pauses on the bottom stair, looking up at Us who's just a stair above him. "Can I drive you home?" He asks Us, hoping that he says yes. With a smile, Us nods. "Thank you." "It's not a problem," JJ assures him. When Us smiles again, what feels like a million different feelings stir up in JJ's belly once more.
JJ knows. He knows what his heart is saying, but he also knows that he doesn't want to take that risk. He doesn't want to do anything that could lose him this friendship with Us. If JJ has nothing else, he has Us. His heart loves Us with such a fierce love it could cause a mountain to crumble, yet he doesn't want to take that chance and lose him.
Us knows too— not what JJ feels, but he knows that he is dangerously cutting close to it being too late to tell JJ how he feels, what is truly going on. Us can't imagine a life without JJ, though, and he feels like it's too much to risk losing him. The way that JJ touches him, the way his smile grows when he sees him and the way his voice softens when he knows that Us is tired— these are all things that make Us's heart feel like it's beating too loud and too fast.
The car ride is mostly silent, both of them fighting the battle of their inner thoughts. Neither of them know how to speak right now, about this or about anything. They're both wrapped up too tightly in their heads. They both need someone to pull them out.
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JJ pulls into the driveway, glancing over at Us. Us wishes they were still driving, that they could just drive for hours and not stop until Us has poured everything out, but then again, maybe it's a good thing that the ride has ended.
Us pauses before he gets out of the car, looking at JJ. A sudden revamp of his desires wash over him, wanting to pull JJ close, wanting to murmur in his ear and kiss his cheek, wanting to lay in the same bed and be held by him all night; his breath catches in his throat and he takes in a deep breath.
JJ smiles at him, unbuckling his seat belt. "Can I walk you to your door?" Us nods, almost absentmindedly, opening the car door. They walk in silence, but it's as if the silence is buzzing with the secrets it knows, urging one or both of them to speak.
JJ makes up his mind, that if he can't speak what he truly wants to say, maybe actions can help. As they reach Us's door, JJ leans in, pressing his lips to Us's cheek. Before he can fully pull back, Us puts his hand the back of JJ's neck, guiding his head to kiss him. It's a soft and fast brush of lips, but it makes Us's body tremble; he breathes out JJ's name, looking up to meet his eyes. JJ presses a hand to Us's cheek. "Us..." JJ can't believe what has just happened. He wants to take a picture and frame the way that Us is looking at him right now.
Us turns, unlocking his door and keeping a hand pressed against JJ. Getting the door open, he pulls JJ in with him. A hunger builds in Us's belly and he shuts the door, pushing JJ against it. Their lips crash together again, creating a more heated and passionate kiss. JJ wraps his arms around Us, pulling him tight against his own body. Us opens his mouth against JJ's, setting to remember each and every part of his mouth and the way that he tastes. JJ nips at Us's lip and smiles when Us lets out a small whimper against his mouth.
Us pulls JJ's lip gently as their lips part, keeping his eyes closed for a few seconds as he comes back to reality. "Do you know how much I love you, Us?" JJ asks, his voice so gentle that it makes Us's heart feel like it's doing a somersault inside of his chest. "How much I think about you every day? How much I want you? How I'm so glad that you're in my life? Us, I love you. I love you and my heart can't take it anymore. I have to let you know." JJ grabs Us's hand, guiding it to his chest and pressing it against his beating heart. Us smiles, looking at his hand before he moves his gaze to JJ's. "You're mine, JJ. Whether you like it or not." JJ kisses Us again, deeply. "I loved you first, of course I'm yours. And of course I like it." "You loved me first?" Us asks softly. "How do you know?" "I just do," JJ replies softly. "You're my entire world."
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"I will never get over you." Us mumbles, looking at JJ. JJ smiles at him, brushing hair from Us's forehead. "Good." He murmurs, kissing Us's cheek.
Us lays pressed against JJ in his bed, his head nuzzled into JJ's neck. JJ keeps pressing soft kisses on Us's skin. "I love you." Us doesn't know how many times he's said it, but it doesn't feel like enough. His eyelids are heavy now, trying to fight sleep. JJ drops a kiss on his forehead, holding his face in his hands. Softly, he murmurs, "Go to sleep, my love." Us smiles. "One more kiss." He begs and JJ obliges, pressing his lips to Us's one more time.
