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chapter 7

Shanti's POV
6 months Later
August 6
📍Ocho Rios 

So far life with my dad has been kind of good I mean differently from the verbal abuse and the rush to do everything cause to him I'm slow.

I burned myself cooking for him, got a bee's sting in my face because of his beloved passenger princess but it's all good.

At least I am still here, Shay's house is like my safe heaven, it's always a vibe.

Other than when she and Shanice think them coulda twist mi inna mix up. Shay said she was going to complain to my father, which she did do he nearly beat my ass black and blue for that. 

I stopped speaking to her for a week for that cause why the hell are you mad at me cause your friends a hypocrite then have the audacity to say mi a mix up.

yuh friend do yuh wah yuh do her and now yuh mad at the middle person like make it make sense cause this math ain't mathing crazy asf.

So, what basically had went down is that after shay told me shan's business, shan came back to me telling me shays business but then she also said shay been talking about me saying this and saying that.

So, I let her know exactly what was said and ya'll already know she went back to shay with that so the whole a dem people yah a two-sided cutlass.

 Not shocking at all after all a Jamaica this caah trust deven yuh shadow cause when it gets too dark that gone to.

Learnt my lesson there, stopped talking and started just listening and observing.
Sometimes I am mostly on the phone with my best friend or in class.

Classes will be resuming in September that's great news. Went to a party with some females in April called Fraternize, all I did was drink and stand around the whole night swore to never go to another one ever again.

Even though I saw marksman and got a picture with him, kinda regretted my outfit choice once I arrived and couldn't change.

It was a vybe still only sad I couldn't enjoy myself fully cuss me and the girls aren't all that close. the clothing I wore also limited my movement and opportunities to bruk out.

However, shay heard about it and asked if I could go to Kash day vibe brunch with her and my dad agreed without my consent so I will be going to another party on August 6.

I was so mad cause I told him I did not like it the first time. All I did was drink and stand-up look like mannequin.

Also, our neighbor contracted Covid and my mom was acting up about me visiting her so he sent me down there for the time being by the time of the party things should go back to normal though.

I mean it's been almost a month and mi a get tired of these hypocritical people. It's like I can't catch a break every turn me turn a sumn different like chill take a chill pill bro.

Anyways life has been lifing and am just here taking it a day at a time after the whole incident at shay's house and the pressure of everything.

School closing and my mom kicking me out I went under deep depression and cut a lot of people off including the love of my life however those circumstances were different. That's the update on what's been going in my life for the past 5 months it's a minor recap tho.

 As we move along more in dept on what's now taking place missing details will be explained.

I feel completely overwhelmed and like I am going through a self-identity crisis like who am I by myself what do I stand for?

On this particular day back in March I was at shay's house when I got a call from a girl that goes to school with me. This was completely shocking because number one we did not talk at school when it was face to face so why she waah talk to me now?

Anyways I answered, "Girl why yuh nah call and checkup pon yuh classmate dem?" she started questioning me right away, like lady slow yuh roll we nuh that close nuh know wah yuh feel like enno.

"I am anti-social; I don't like people and also uno neva yet talk to me when we a go school before covid so why mi woulda force up myself inna nobody" I answered her plainly with an uncaring voice  

She laughed as if she thought I was joking which mi really nuh find this funny cause this is how I genuinely feel, uno do like uno nuh know me when uno see mi so keep the same energy when uno deh home and lonely mi is not nobody backup plan the fuck uno feel like?

As mi say mi cut off and ghost a lot of people recently some a dem never deserve it some did but at the end of the day am suffering mentally and feel like this is the best choice for me. coming back out of my zoned-out space and thoughts I realized she added some of our other classmates to the call.

The worst part about it is that a mostly boys so yuh know wah me do as a good person? mi hang up mi phone lock off mi likkle data and put eh phone pon silent cause why mi ago siddung pon phone with a bagga niggas weh naah say or do nun weh relevant to me or weh ago benefit me positively.

After I cut the call, I finished up some assignments I had due online know say if mi did stay pon eh call mi couldn't do that.

No offense to mi classmate and friends dem but dem Idle differently stillz.

Being back here at my mom's house after being told to leave is kind of messing with my brain.

I have been falling in and out of depression not eating etc.... and those of you who don't know I have bipolar disorder.

This makes my overview of myself and people alot different and especially because the medication doesn't really help me it makes me feel different like I lack genuine emotional connection to the people around me.

Feels like my emotions are automatically generated for me and even so no one will ever understand me or even stick around long enough to try and figure out whats up with me.

I feel like a burden to the people around me and I can't even explain why I am the way I am without opening up which is something I hate to do and try my best to avoid doing cause what is not used against becomes headline news when you and the person falls out.

Anyways enough of that my mom just got done doing my hair and am going to do my nails I have a couple parties to attend with my dad today, he is supposed to be here to pick me up around 3 pm and its 1 pm.

My hair is done so all that's left to do now is to pack my bags and do my nails then wait on my dad to arrive am going to shower right now and then pack my bags and do my nails.

To be continued next chapter....

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