Reincarnationᴱᴺᴳ || Ryomen Sukuna

2 - A Void

I have always felt a void inside me without being able to identify it, but it has always been there, as if I was missing something, someone I couldn't remember.

Ever since I was little, I had been trying to fill this void. I thought I was lacking love or affection so I would always ask my big brother for cuddles or to take care of me, but nothing helped.

This void persisted despite my brother's love, a void that haunted me and filled me with sadness. Maybe I missed my mother's love. After all, she died when I was born and I only had the servants of the Gojo family to raise me, as well as my big brother.

I tried to find a whole bunch of solutions to fill this void, starting with animals. I had four cats in total. I had a great love for animals, so I told myself that I surely needed them by my side to have their affection and cuddles.

But no, that obviously didn't change anything.

When Satoru took Megumi under his wing, I thought having someone new by my side could fill that void. After all, having a "little brother" seemed like a good idea. But even though Megumi and I were quite close, it didn't fill the void I felt.

In the end, I was lost.

Obviously, I had come to the conclusion that I needed the love of someone who wasn't my family or friends, the love of someone I could call my boyfriend or my girlfriend.

But I couldn't fall in love.

Even though I met people who could have filled me with happiness, my heart could never resign itself to loving someone in this way. It's as if in reality, my heart is already taken by someone. But by whom ? When I talked to Satoru about it, he told me this sentence:

- My little sister is in love with someone who was present in her previous life ? Satoru told me, laughing and smiling like an idiot while pinching my cheeks.

He said it while laughing like an idiot, but I took his words seriously. What if that was the case ? What if that was really why I felt this emptiness inside me, because I loved someone present in a past life ?It seemed crazy but not impossible.

Could this love have been so powerful that even today I would continue to feel it in my heart ?

- Kuro, I need your help. I said in a impatient tone of voice, my words echoing around the room in my bedroom.

Kuro was a cursed spirit who was at my side since I was little. I was sure I couldn't control the curses though, I didn't have an Cursed Technique, like Suguru or something like that.

But I still had Kuro by my side to protect me without knowing why. It mainly manifested itself in black hands like those of a shadow, as black as coal, which sometimes left black marks behind its passage.

- Still troubled by your feelings, Yielhi ? Kuro's voice questioned while two black arms appeared at my side.

- Satoru told me that it could be my love for a person in one of my past lives. I explained in the hope of having an answer to this feeling of emptiness. Do you think it's possible ?

I heard Kuro huff before his arms moved to my bed where his invisible figure lay on my white sheets, his black hands leaving a mark on the whiteness of my sheets that had only just been cleaned.

- Come on, Kuro ! You must know, right ? You're thousands of years old, you're even older than Tengen. I exclaimed before jumping on my bed, right next to Kuro's invisible figure.

I lay down next to him, resting my head on his shoulder with a frown on my face. I was sure Kuro knew something, he was old and full of knowledge, so he must at least know something.

- I already told you, you're just frustrated with your feelings. That's what adolescence is all about. Kuro's voice was cold, as always, he was exasperated by my behavior.

- I remind you that I'm 21 now... I sighed in a frustrated way before crossing my arms under my chest and looking at the white ceiling of my room.

Sometimes I wondered if Kuro wasn't doing it on purpose. He's a grumpy grandfather who hates everything, but he's always been there to protect me since I was born for no reason, which I always found strange.

Why would a cursed spirit protect a human for no apparent reason ?

I've always been happy to have Kuro by my side since I don't have powers like my brother. Satoru has the six eyes of the Gojo clan as well as the infinity, in this case I have none of that...

Satoru always told me that I had endless cursed energy within me and yet, I've never really been able to do anything.

There were so many questions I had about myself, so many unanswered questions...

Who am I really ?

- You're just a grumpy grandfather anyway... I muttered under my breath in a sullen manner.

Kuro only sighed at my words, while I continued to stare at the ceiling of my room, looking thoughtful. There had to be someone who knew something and would be willing to tell me, but who ? I had to find this person and I was going to find them.