Limerenza

Chapter 3: Meeting and reunion

We are on the terrace of the bar, where several of us are already seated, both outside and inside, I think they are waiting for the club to open, for most of them. I am no longer used to going out at night, the parties have been replaced little by little by other activities but during the day, which exhaust me enough not to want to go out at night. But once outside, I admit to appreciating this relaxing moment, in the end I could see myself enjoying it from time to time.

- Come on my dear, let's finally toast to your first outing since the beginning of the year, which I warn you, will not be the last though! She hands me her glass of cocktail and I do the same. I managed to get you out after the vain attempts, now is the time to enjoy it!

- Let's start with this evening which will have to satisfy me 100% to make me want to go again. I told him unequivocally... Let's see it as a challenge to take up, okay?

Then we toast with this first mojito that will warm our bodies but also our minds.

"You can't really hold your liquor anymore, so we'll just have one drink here and we'll continue the party at the club, huh! I'd like you to be able to get to your destination without having to cut our evening short, thank you very much."

"Thank you my star, for reminding me how much the gap between us has become a chasm," I admitted. The latter shrugged her shoulders, a falsely compassionate look.

"I'm not worried, you'll rectify the problem soon enough I think, given how you have this annoying habit of wanting to control everything, you're the one who's going to tame the bottle tonight I'm sure of it!"

Faced with this truth, I clap my hands and raise my head, laughing out loud. It's true, in truth I manage my consumption well, but above all, I don't want to lose control when I drink anymore, once was enough for me, so obviously I'm going to rectify this problem.

The only time I got really drunk, a little before Carlu and I decided to be together, I remember ending up at "my partner for the night", who was super hot but damn, I don't remember what really happened. My memory plays tricks on me, when I try to carefully recall the whole course of this evening spent in his company at his place, of course my amnesia makes me a little false on the accuracy of our lovemaking in his sheets in the middle of the night. Only the truth of my aching body made me understand that we didn't go gently. I just ran off first thing after gazing at his sleeping face, only to forget this negligence by swallowing my shame and wondering if he would even remember my first name because to my great confusion, I had lost the memory of his. Did he even tell me? The horror. I didn't bother to really look at the place or even his mailbox, I really took off. That's why after that, I pulled myself together on the outings and drinks which have diminished considerably since then.

- Who would think, with your angelic face and your angelic voice when you sing, that you would be a real little demon when you drink? She mocks with her hand in front of her mouth.

- Right? Let's say that I felt free without thinking about my obligations but please, in moderation tonight okay? It's been a long time since I allowed myself to succumb to the easy way out.

I finish the rest of my glass in one go and when I put it down, it's more delicately, my brain sends me a signal, a presence. I look around me, with a natural air as if I wanted to pay attention to the environment around me, the place is obviously crowded, but I know that deep down, we are being watched and I look for this really discreet pair of eyes. Given the world, I don't linger and finally I turn my attention to Stella who seemed to do the same.

- What are you looking for... or who? A new prey? She says with her semblance of inspection, then looks at me out of the corner of her eye and narrows her eyes in a questioning manner.