"When limerence begins with a one-night stand and turns into a total obsession that leads to an involuntary state with a burning desire."
Everything happens in Corsica, precisely in Balagne where Laurina lives. Her life seems full, between work and...
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MAXEL
– Fuck... What the hell am I doing here? I whispered.
I've been waiting for over three hours in a remote corner, leaning on my motorcycle waiting for a silhouette to reappear heading towards her vehicle...
Since I ran into the one I was desperate to ever meet again, my thoughts have been troubled again... She left an impact on me that night. I've never wanted someone as much as I want her, after a night spent together. She revealed a dark and captivating side of her personality that left me speechless. When I woke up and noticed her absence, slipping my hand into my cold sheets, a fucking thing that has never happened to me before, a devastating desire took hold of me. If I had known that for the first time in my life, a woman would voluntarily leave my bed, I wouldn't have slept to make sure I kept her by my side. I would have done anything to be able to see her again later. Since then, she has become the object of my obsession. I have idealized every day that God makes, the moments that I wish to realize with her, the moments that we would spend together. Every imagined detail of my existence at her side was drowned in the whirlwind of my desires and just the idea of having her for me one day, made my organ thunder even louder.
Because despite the months that have passed, nothing and no one has been able to divert my thoughts from this little brunette with an angelic face and her magnificent sapphire blue eyes, from her little arms of a well-hidden strength. A beauty of a little woman with a childish face who nevertheless shelters a goddess with immense charm, a power that she exercises without context on those around her of which she is perhaps not even aware. If this is the case, I will have to hang on to attract all of her attention.
When for yet another evening, I was watching the world outside the bar, I saw her sitting with her friend laughing, her voice that shook me the second I heard it and I didn't look away. I found the creature that had upset my heart rate the moment I laid eyes on her. Like a predator, I had to stay on the lookout for her every move... This time, I couldn't allow myself to make such a mistake. The one to lose her again.
When Antone called me to meet me, I suggested that we come directly to Closer. When they got up, I understood that they would spend their evening there. And once we met, I kept my eyes fixed on her so as not to lose her a second time, then I waited long enough at our table, so that she could make the most of her evening... Before making my appearance. I tried to calm my emotions and my trembling hands in front of Antone despite the betrayal of my leg, a sign of my agitation, but I could no longer let my chance to talk to her pass me by.
I got up mechanically to go meet her and realize my desires hidden for too long... All under the gaze of my best friend, who has suspected my intentions since I whispered to him my interest in the simplest possible way for this woman, whom I joined the first time on the dance floor. The warmth of her body moving to the rhythm of the music, which my hands slowed down by gently passing them over her hips to signal my presence. The heat that emanated through her satin dress gave me a thermal shock... It was confirmed in my mind when she turned around to face me, that she will be the woman who will share my existence, without any doubt. A strange feeling that one feels as if it were obvious...
– How are you, mio cuore?
My activated, unusual impulses pushed me to want to smell as closely as possible the exquisite perfume of the one who deprived me of total freedom of my actions. She had a reaction time before remembering and she seemed hesitant, she must not remember much anymore because of her abuse of drink, but that's not a problem. I intend to remind her of every detail as I go along.
Since her passing, other women no longer interest me, I had to relieve my sexual tensions with a few consenting girls demanding my attention, but it remains brief and my detachment defines the sentimental line not to be crossed. Although she is the cause, I do not intend to possess her in a strong way, no. On the contrary, I will conquer her heart and soul, I swear to myself, no matter the time.
When we followed them until they entered safety, I was able to obtain more information about her on my side like her workplace, which leaves me doubtful... She is like a puzzle that I have to reconstruct... whether the pieces are damaged, crooked, more or less beautiful or for some rebellious, they all have a role to play in her life and I want to be the last piece of her puzzle...
I see her coming back, with the one I think is her boyfriend or "ex-boyfriend", from what I understood. I think I found him at the best time, I don't know what my reaction would have been and the depth of my disappointment if they were still on better terms, it was already borderline when I understood her call the other night that she had someone. I come to wonder if she was already with him when we met. Everything jostles in my head and yet my determination remains the same. I want to make her mine.
I am, unfortunately for him, happy with the direction this relationship is taking now, which I think is the end.
When I see her advance and accept his arms that wrap around her, I feel taken aback and I don't hesitate to straighten up from my motorcycle to tear my cell phone from the back pocket of my jeans. Panicked, I call him to cut short the embrace that is taking place before my eyes, helpless. I can't let the opportunity for a return of spark, without wanting to define the reason for the embrace... I prefer to put an end to it. Luckily she has hers on her and moves away to answer me... For the second time in such a short time, my heart is beating wildly.
- Hello?
This simple word increases my heart rate like an electric shock. I catch my breath before answering her.
- Good evening, beautiful.
She stops walking, turns back to the view of the estate before continuing towards her Jeep.
- Max? How did you get my number? Without giving me time to answer she adds: "Oh yes, Antone, it's true that I left her mine."
Her suave voice is a real sweetness to my ear.
- Not too disappointed that it's my call rather than hers?
- What? Uh... but no!
I hear the confusion in her voice and I can't help but smile, I often plan to tease her if she lets herself be easily fooled... As for her number; I actually had a bit of trouble getting it, Antone hesitated to let me have it knowing how much I was waiting for this moment, that idiot.
- Can we meet up for a drink? In the two times we've seen each other, we've parted in strange circumstances. I hear her laugh and she increases my hope.
- It's true I admit it... but not tonight, today was a pretty eventful day and I feel drained... but another day if you want, yes no problem.
I was expecting a refusal and I was ready with several arguments... the habit of my fear of rejection, this fear has always prepared me to retaliate against the negative effect of words, gestures. To the point of no longer feeling pain. I no longer let myself be carried away by these emotions. I feed on them to transform them concretely into joy and love.
- Okay. If you want, I coach in a gym in the city, you can come and join me whenever you want and why not in uniform if you want to take advantage of our equipment.
- You're a coach? But that's right!
– Glad you like it. I'll send you the address and you just have to let me know the day that suits you.
– Okay, let's do it like this... I'll contact you.
– See you soon, my dear.
With that, I hang up. And although she can't see me right away, I know that in the gym and with people around, she'll feel more comfortable and that will encourage her to come. My gut tells me she'll appreciate what I have to offer her.
I watch her leave, with a sense of relief in my chest. From where I am, she can't see me and I wait until she's far enough away to hit the road. I put on my helmet, then I start off, leaving a good distance after seeing her Jeep, I check that she's getting back safely... When she gets closer to her apartment, I change streets and head back towards the gym.
I look forward to the day she contacts me and I hope she does so soon enough.
