The Past That Hunts Us (slow updates)

In The Arms Of Your Lover

The detectives had all been searching for something new on their latest case.

"Okay, you've all done enough today and were not getting anywhere. Go home." Olivia said.

"Okay. See you tomorrow." Nick said as he and Fin waved their goodbye's.

Olivia walked to Amanda's desk.

"Are you ready to go?" Olivia asked.

"Yeah." Amanda said as she stood up for her chair and put on her jacket.

"Okay." Olivia said as they started walking toward the elevator.

Amanda was walking with her head down. But Olivia decided to say nothing. She didn't want to fight with the beautiful blond. Wait, what? No, she couldn't think about Amanda that way. Amanda probably didn't even like her. And she didn't want to argue with her because Amanda could have some helpful information about the kidnapping.

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"Please, come in." Olivia said as she opened the door.

She and Amanda walked into the apartment. Lucy greeted them and told them that Noah was already sleeping. Olivia told Amanda to sit down on the couch as she walks Lucy out. After a couple minutes she came back. She saw Amanda was really nervous.

"Do you want something to drink?"

"Huh, what?"

She's so cute.

"If you want something to drink?" She said giggling.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I just..."

"Don't be. I get it." She said smiling.

"So how about that drink?"

"Water is good." Amanda said.

Olivia walked to the kitchen and got a water for Amanda and a soda for herself. She walked back to the couch and gave Amanda her water.

"Here."

"Thank you."

"So, you're better now?" Olivia asked.

"Uh yeah. You know, I..uh..I don't know where to start." Amanda answers as she stared at her feet.

"Just start from the beginning. Take a breath. Okay?"

"Yeah, okay. Four years ago, there was a 12 years old girl abducted. Her name was Sophia. Sophia Donovan. She was just like Emily Jones. Never in trouble, a good girl, you know." Olivia nodded as Amanda continued with the story. "We had footage of the abducting and we saw Thomas Lockwood kidnapping Sophia. Thomas sells them to his boss. Nobody knows who he is. We only have a name if it's correct. Carlos Rivera. We found out he's one of the most dangerous sex traffickers in the world. He was in Atlanta at that time. And that's all we found out. And now he's probably in New York."

"Okay, what about the girl? You found her?" Olivia asked.

"Sophia, she was really smart and she somehow got a phone and called 911. They sent her through to me. And we were talking and I asked her questions and she remembered a lot. But then she said that someone was coming, I told to not hang up the phone, so she didn't. Carlos came in and he took the phone, told Sophia she had made the wrong move and then he told me that I made a mistake by trying to find Sophia. That's when I heard a gunshot. He had killed Sophia." Amanda said while tears were streaming down her face. "The next moment I had to tell her parents that their daughter was dead and that they had to bury a coffin without her body in it. Because we knew that we were not going to find her. And I had to tell them that it was all my fault because I told her not to hang up the phone."

"Amanda look at me, look at me. You have to believe that this wasn't your fault. You weren't the one who abducted and killed her, they did. And they're the only ones to blame." Olivia said as her eyes were getting wet.

Olivia hugged Amanda and they stayed there for a couple minutes till Olivia pulled back. But Amanda pulled her right back in and their lips connected. She was kissing Olivia Benson. After a couple seconds that seemed hours to Amanda. She pulled back.

"I'm so sorry. I don't know what I was thinking." Amanda said as she quickly started to get up and walked towards the door. As soon Olivia realized what just had happened she stood up even faster than Amanda just did and she grabbed Amanda's wrist. And Olivia pulled Amanda back in and their lips connected for the second time that night. Amanda was in shock. When Olivia realized Amanda wasn't kissing her back, she quickly pulled away.

"Are you okay?" Olivia asked her worried because Amanda wasn't kissing her back.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just wasn't expecting that." She replied.

As soon as Amanda said that, Olivia pulled back in once again that night. Soon they were kissing like there was no tomorrow. They slowly walked back towards the couch and Olivia softly pushed Amanda down on it. They were making out on the couch for a couple minutes. Olivia starting going down to her collar bone and started sucking on it. Amanda knew that Olivia would never go futher than that, but it couldn't happen right now. Because she just wasn't ready for more since Patton.

"Please, Liv..stop." She murmured between her moans.

Olivia quickly got off of Amanda.

"I'm so sorry. Are you okay? Did I hurt you?" Olivia asked Amanda worried about the younger woman once again.

"No, Liv. I'm fine and you didn't hurt me. It's just that I..uh..I.."

"Mandy, you can tell me everything. You know that right?"

"Yeah, I know. It's just that I haven't been this close, you know, to someone since Patton." She said quickly looking down.

"I'm so sorry, Manda. I didn't think about it."

"No, it's okay. Don't apologize." She said smiling.

Olivia hugged her and they just lay down on the couch. Till they both fell asleep.

And Amanda, Amanda fell asleep in the arms of her lover.