CryBaby| Minsung |

_The usual_

Jisung pov:

I woke up to the usual ringing of my alarm *ugh a new shitty school day why can't I just quit* I turned the alarm off and got up then did the usual breakfast, dressing ect.

I wore a black a skirt with fishnets and a baggy band t shirt with some black vans

As I walked to the bus Felix walked up to me, the short blond boy was so happy all the time I sometimes wish to be him "Jisung what's up" the short boy asked me, I just rolled my eyes and responded "the sky"

Felix rolled his eyes and slapped my arm "you are so grumpy" I didn't answer and just got on the bus waiting for this day to finally end "Jisung did you learn for the math exam?" I looked at him in shock "what fucking exam?!" "the one thats today in math, no way you didnt study" Felix laughed at me but I ignored him as usual cause I was tired ugh I shouldn't have watched some thai bl until 3 am again "Jisung stop ignoring me you know I can't stand the silence" Felix looked at me "Felix I am sorry I just didn't sleep enough ok and you know how bad I am mentally right now" I said stroking my friends shoulder comforting I feel bad for ignoring him

We got out of the bus and went inside of the school, getting greeted by Minho, my other friend. we are a trio

Felix and I both ran up to him hugging him

"hey cute bitches I thought you guys were sick or something" the brown haired boy laughed and pulled me flush against his chest while felix just stood there scrolling through his phone Omg why the fuck do I feel warm and weird I got red and just hid my face in my friends chest "Jisung whats wrong why are you so clingy" the tall boy laughed

the bell rang and we all went to math class

shit I totally forgot they shitty exam is now I groaned and got to my seat, the room was quiet and everyone did their work but I just stared at my work sheat and started crying, the teacher walked to me

"Jisung go to the bathroom and get freshened up ok you can take the test next week ok" he said and smiled at me warmly before I got up and left

After some time the bathroom door opened revealing Minho who immediately hugged me "Jisung what happened why were you crying?" he asked softly as I hugged him back

"I just didn't study" I sobbed

"Jisung, this is the third time this month that you didn't study at all! Is everything ok?" he had a bit of an angry but still concerned voice

that's the problem I never told minho that I am going through shit cause he has many problems himself so I just told Felix

"Earth to Jisung" minho waved his hand in front of my face making me snap out of my thinking

"oh uh yeah everything is fine I just stayed up late again you know the usual" I laughed it off

Minho just gave me a weird look and shrugged it off

The school day ended and I got home

I was alone like usual, my parents were working so what could happen if a teenage boy with bad mental health is left alone at home? Correct, he would do something stupid so I walked to my room, took out a little key from a drawer and opened a jewelry box with pretty necklaces and rings etc. but one thing stood out it was a tiny blade from a pencil sharpener, I took the blade and pulled of my shirt revealing several cuts on my stomach some old and some new ones

I slid the blade across my stomach several times until I was satisfied, I walked to the bathroom and cleaned the wounds up and put bandages on the deep ones

An hour later

Felix called me and ofc as a good friend I picked up

"Jisung let's play Roblox" the blond said excited

"Felix you are 16 years old and you want to play that crap with me, it is a kids game" I groaned but then just played with him ofc dress to impress because it is Felix's favorite

We played for about two hours while talking shit about our weird classmates and all the new gossip. After that it was already 5 pm. and my parents came home.

It was nothing special when they would came home they would just make dinner we would eat together and they would rant about how shitty their job is and how I have to get better grades and if I want to talk about how bad I feel and what I have done to myself they would cut me off and say I shouldn't be such a crybaby and that it isn't that bad and I should just get over it.

Liah:

yayyyy this is the first chapter I hope you guys like it and I would be happy to get some feedback from you all and some things I could do better but just so you know I am not a native english speaker I am from germany so please let my bad english be ok.🥲

lots of love to you all😍