His Favourite

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐯𝐞

Y/N

Semester one starts today. I'm hella nervous. I don't know how it's going to go. Will it be bad or good. Will i get through the first semester? What happens if i fail again? I don't wanna fail again or else i'll sit back in the same class, and then i'll be ashamed, my parents won't like it, they would probably kick me out. I might make gio sad too, then he might want to end the relationship with me. Gosh so many thoughts are running through my mind now. The whole night i did not sleep, because of my overthinking and anxiety. In the morning when the sleep was trying to overtake me, my father bragged into the room and shook me up, asking me to wake up and get ready for college. I am stressing too much. I need to stress or else i don't know what will happen.

Here i am, all ready for college, and with a big cup of coffee in my hand. My parents are staring at me as though i messed up something. I don't look into their eyes, i look down at the coffee mug.

"What exam is today y/n?" And there goes my father, asking the same question today for the 100th time. I roll my eyes at him before answering. "English" i say. "Show that same attitude in your academics" he spits. I gulp looking down.

Yes i am sad with myself, i am not happy at all, i am sad that they had to get a daughter like me who is a failure.

"English is easy for me" i say as i drink down my coffee. "That's the only subject you ever passed in. Other than that you fail" my mother says with a mockery present in her tone. "Yeah right. Your mother is right y/n, we did not admit you in college to see you fail. All of us, our relations and everyone are educated, what will people think and speak about you knowing that you failed and couldn't complete college. Your shame will go. You will be marked as an uneducated person, who wants nothing in life, who has no goal, who is always lazy" he says. His words are cutting me deeper and deeper. I can't take it. I need to do something.

I set my coffee cup down and walk to my bedroom. I grab my bag and check all the necessary items in it. I grab my phone and tuck it in my jeans. I grab a small white cotton coat and push it in my bag, because i know i'll be needing it soon. My chest is hurting, i need to break down but i can't.

I quickly tie my shoelace and put the bag on my shoulder, i close my door and walk away. "Failure b*t*h" i hear my mother as i walk out of the house.

My nerves are so nervous, my mind is getting wavered to bad bad thoughts which i wanna do with myself.

I take the metro and stand inside the train, i can feel it move, but i don't feel like moving. All i wanna do is hug someone, hug gio tightly. I wanna run away from here and never ever come back.

The metro halts and i walk out of it, i walk on the concrete road and stop by a broken wooden bench. I need to do this here, because i won't have time in college. I take my seat there and set my bag beside me. The blade which was in my pocket is now in my hand. I stare at it for a while until i am doing it again, yes self-h**ming myself. I make cuts on my left hand, i watch the blood immediately rush out of my skin. I'll probably die doing this one day. Then i'll be free from everything, it doesn't matter where my destination will be, either in heaven or hell.

Once i am satisfied, i wipe the blood from the blade and tuck it back in my jeans pocket. I stand up and wipe away my tears, i put on a mask and walk my way towards the college.

------------------TIME SKIP-------------------

Our examiner is gio. I am glad that it is him but at the same time, i don't want him to notice me. It has been two hours since since the exam has started. There is one hour left for the exam.

The paper is easy, and i am sure i'll get an A+ in it. My eyes lift from the paper and drift towards the class, i feel thirsty and i pick up my bottle to quench my thirst, without noticing i pull my mask down and sip on the water, when i feel someone staring at me intensely. I put the bottle down and catch gio looking at me with curious eyes. I gulp, and put back my mask on.

I drop my gaze from him, flinching all of a sudden. My hand start to shake. My heart is beating rapidly. My fingers are vibrating. I don't know what to do. I can't seem to do anything. My pen falls down and i am unable to pick it up. Suddendly, black boots come into view and my pen is picked up by a veiny hand. Glancing up, i see it is none othee than gio. My eyes instantly water and i clutch my shaking hands to my chest, breathing heavily.

Gio stares at me, as i shakily pick up another pen from my box and try to scribble down but it goes wrong. "Y/n are you ok?" He asks, his voice in a soft whisper. "Y-ye-ss s-sir" i stutter feeling cold all of a sudden. "Are you done with the exam?" He asks. His voice is so soft and full of concern. Don't have pity on me sir, i don't need it.

I shake my head no "just one more page" i reply and wipe my tears. "have some water" he states and grabs my water bottle opening it, he hands it to me. I gulp down and feel the tears stop. "Thank you sir" i whisper. He nods his head and stands there as i finish my paper.

Once i am done, he grabs it and takes it with him, but not before whispering something in my ear. "Stay after everyone leaves"

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