Blood & Lust Jasper Hale x reader

Chapter 5

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I just got done hunting for the morning and Jacob has been really helps me by controlling my thirst for my blood lust, and now I go out with Jacob to the store and I help cook and many house routine’s and it feels really nice.

Billy and me have some time alone when Jacob goes out with the pack to hunt for Victoria and the unknown vampire.

Billy almost feels like a father figure to me and it feels nice to be careful for, though I do miss the Cullen's I do see Rosalie here and there and sometimes she is with Emmett and sometimes I think he secretly enjoys when have a spa day.

Though I don't see Jasper that much anymore but I believe that's for the best for the of us.
I don't know why but Jacob’s presence just helps me and he means a lot to me and our friendship has grown through our times we've spent together.

Some days Jacob teaches me about the wolves history and we did some more research about hybrids. After so much researching and reading about hybrids, me and Jacob decided  to out for some fun and we head to La push beach.

“So do you really think you could be a hybrid?” Jacob asked me and I couldn't answer it, I'm still learning but I've gone to like my vampire side but most days I miss my wolf side just feeling the dirt between my paws and my fur blowing through the wind.

“I don't know, I guess it's just a feeling I don't want to give up not knowing if there's a possibility.” I answered him.

Well if you are, I believe that you'll be a great hybrid and I believe that you'll be a great leader if you find more.” Jacob says “Thanks, I'm just worried that I'll become like the hybrids from the stories I've heard so far.” Jacob looks at me “Don't listen to what all those websites and stories said, people don't know what they are talking about most of these on the websites are most likely just theories it doesn't tell you who you are, it's your choice and it's your story you decide on how you want it to end.

I nod Jacob does have a point and it makes me a lot better on how my chances on being a hybrid, but the fear still settles in me that I might not see my wolf side again.

“Hey Jake?” He looks at me “What if I don't see my wolf side anymore, will still want to be friends?” I asked and Jacob takes awhile to answer “I don't care if you're a vampire or a wolf, you're one of my best friend and nothing will change that.” He says and it makes my worries settle.

“ I never said this to you, but you don't have to worry, I won't hate you for who you are y/n.” Jacob says

I trust Jacob’s words and that there makes me realize that Jacob is more than a friend, he's my brother.

We walked more on La push until it gets dark, “I think maybe I should at least try to shift, what do you think Jake?” I asked and Jacob nods in agreement since it's only me and him there.

I make myself room for myself and Jacob so that I don't hurt him.

After a few times of trying to shift into my Wolf form and nothing has  happened until my tenth time and it was getting hard to stand and my legs start to give out.

“I think we should stop for today y/n.” Jacob says concern about my condition as he runs to my side holding onto my shoulders.

“No I'm fine, I have to keep trying.” And he looks at me “you can but not anymore today okay.” Jacob looks me in his eyes and I could see his concern, “Please y/n let's go home.”  I sigh and give in after his many pleas for stopping today, I get up from my knees to only fall back down to the ground.