Is This The World?

Wishing

~Author Note~

Once again I was bored at the end of the day and fan girling over a guy so here goes.

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I was enamored from day one.

The first day of school.

My first year of high school.

You didn't notice.

You were experienced,

A junior.

There were probably a lot of girls like me.

I wish I could look at you in class,

But all I can see is your reflection in the darkness

of the TV screen. A reminder that I will never know the real

you.

I can hear you talk,

But it's not to me.

I wish it was.

I paid attention; learned that you have

interests, similar to mine.

Beef Jerky,

rock bands,

TV shows.

But you're sadistic,

even if you don't know it.

Not being able to find the words to say to you

hurts.

Seeing you with her for the first time

hurts.

Knowing that I can look, but not touch

hurts so much!

Although, there is a bright side to my longing.

Your smile is like a light behind dark clouds.

It makes me want to smile too; it's so sunny.

When I see you stand alone, I just want

to stand by you.

You would never be alone if I could.

Sometimes your so awkward, but

I find it endearing.

You said 'Hi' once,

You even said my name.

I was walking on clouds for the rest of the day,

even though I didn't reply. Just knowing that

I wasn't invisible to you was enough.

I saw you again today.

Wearing an Asking Alexandria shirt and a smirk.

Your eyes were an icy blue.

Your hair light, your stubble dark.

A beautiful contradiction.

I wish you could be my beautiful contradiction, and I,

yours.