Heal my heart

now you care?

***
when my family asked about my bruises and cuts and why i wasnt with tom or out at least,
I just made up a lie instead of ignoring them.

it was my last week working for tom. i was so numb and weak but i had to work.

i walked into toms house.

i walked right past him to ally when she hugged me. I really needed a hug. Hers where the best.

i almost started crying.

tom left as always.

bill walked in the house but i chose to ignore his existence.

a few hours later*

tom came home. i was getting ready to leave.

"Jesus what happened to your lip?" He asked me looking at my cut upper lip.

i looked at him with a blank stare ignoring him.

"evie anwser me" he demanded.

"Evie!" He shouted grabbing my arm i was cut on. I winced and pulled my arm back.

he stared at me when he realized i was beat up in some way.

"Evie please tell me what happened" he begged. i refused.

"now you care?" is what i said with a glare

he aggressively pinned me to the wall taking my hoodie off.

"tom stop it please" i told him weakly.
he saw the long cut.

"fuck! Fuck fuck fuck!" He shouted.

"Iam so sorry evie" he hugged me.

"No!" I yelled pushing him away. "I called you 14 times. And you hung up. Every single one of them! I needed you! And you didnt care!"
i was so mad i tried fighting the tears that swelled in my eyes.

"evie, sweetheart please you know i didnt mean to-"

"Fuck you tom!" i shouted

"I was raped and i called you because i thought you would help me! I thought you were a good guy tom. But i thought wrong. I fucking hate you" i stared at him as all he had in his eyes were guilt.

"you dont mean it." He said standing right infront of me.

"how could you do that to me?" My voice cracked as more tears slid down my face.

he hugged me again. i tried pushing him away but he squeezed me tighter.

he brought me upstairs and for the first time i layed down in his bed. with him.

my head rested on his chest as he stroked my hair.

i fell asleep.
I woke up with my surroundings empty. Tom wasnt in the room. i got up rubbing my eyes and went downstairs.

tom was talking with bill.

"theres my girl!" Tom smiled. I looked behind me, thinking he was maybe talking to ally.

she wasnt behind me.

tom came up to me and hugged me. "how'd you sleep?" He looked at me just inches between us.

His fingers slowly tucked my hair behind my ears.

i smelled his breath of alcohol.

"i slept good" i responded.

soon his hands were on my waist.
"tom?what are you doing?" I asked him. "i missed you" he whined in my ear holding me close to him.

i pussed him away.

"whats wrong?" He asks as in ive let him touch me in this way before. "i have to go." I say before quickly leaving.

he didnt say anything.

that wasnt in my mind at the moment.
'He was just drunk' 'he was just drunk'
I repeated in my head.

i went home and my whole parents where shocked when i walked in so early.