The Bechloe Breakfast Club

She's lying but not next to me

Beca's POV

All night I was thinking about what happened and what Emily told me..

She was right.. We humans are scared of how people will react when we open up..

I was scared..

And I had a lot of doubts.. I didn't know if it was smart to maybe knock on her door and tell her I'm sorry.. I really wanted to see her..

We should've been together in the bathtub tonight..

Okay I can't just say I'm sorry, that wouldn't solve anything.

But the idea of her thinking I don't love her is freaking me out.. I wanted to do something about it.. I want to tell her exactly what I feel.. But the problem is I don't know how I feel.. I only know I love her and that I want to make things right..

After a few hours lying down looking at the ceiling I decided to grab some water from downstairs.. I walked past Chloe's door and I wondered if she was awake.. Probably not because the night was almost over.. But I wondered If I could maybe hear her.. So I walked closer to her door.. I was really trying to be as quiet as possible..

I heard nothing so I walked downstairs..

It was really dark.. I could only see the streetlights through the window and I heard some cars passing by..

I opened the fridge.. First I thought there was nothing in it.. But then I saw something and it seemed like someone was hiding it from everyone.. It was something wrapped in foil.. I opened it up..

And of course it was Fat Amy's bar of chocolate..

''DO NOT TOUCH'' was written on a note..

I wasn't really hungry.. So she didn't have to worry about that..

I just grabbed a glass of water and I sat down on the couch.. Lily was gone but Flo was still fast asleep lying on the couch..

I wondered if there was anything on TV.. But when I turned it on the volume was too loud and I woke her up..

''JEEZ Chiquita! You gave me a heart attack!''

''I'm so sorry..''

''Why are you not asleep?'' she asked me.

''Oh I just couldn't and I was thirsty..''

''Aaa it's because of Chloe isn't it?''

I didn't say anything..

She stood up and walked to the fridge..

''I don't know what you see in her but you seem cute together..''

I chuckled a little..

''But she is mad now..''

Flo let out a sigh.. ''You know.. I don't understand you americans.. In my country.. Well we don't have many lesbians.. But in my country when we are mad at each other, we yell at each other for like 15 minutes and then we go fighting, have sex, everything is solved..''

''I don't think it works that way with us.. Well.. Not this time..''

''Well then buy her something expensive.. It's Chloe.. I don't know.. Buy a puppy or something..''

Flo opened the fridge..

'''Look what we found here!''

She grabbed the chocolate..

''Oh that's actually Amy's..''

Flo closed the fridge..

''Do I look like I care? I'll buy her new one..''