King Of Curses | R. Sukuna x Y/n / Fem Reader

Chapter 6: Death

'Ryoumen Sukuna's inner thoughts said;'

'When your starry, tearful eyes widened upon my words of forgiveness, something within me had opened up strangely. It felt like I had accomplished my goal, yet failed at the same time. For once, I did not know my own intentions. Am I truly evil?'

'Is it my nature, my will, or nothing at all? Despite my shattered, stone heart, you'd still find your way inside my soul.'

'I had always strived to torture your pure soul, ending every ounce of kindness left inside you. Yet, it returns back to you as if it was meant to be, as if it never abandoned you. I asked myself for the first time, why do I torture such an angel like you?'

'Perhaps, I did develop an unhealthy attachment towards you, who saw me. Nobody else saw through me, until you suddenly entered my life and made it happier. You were the color to my life.'

'At first, I thought that I was born simply to spread brutality and domination towards the world. Truthfully, I was glad I didn't. Because if I did, I wouldn't have ever met you. You changed me into something I believed I could never become; a kind soul.'

'In the void of your dreams, I lie truthfully. I dehumanized myself and succumbed to pure evil, resulting in bloodshed. So why must you, an angel that had fallen from heaven itself, come to save an unlovable demon like me who did not deserve pity?'

'My bloody hands were scarred with brutality, yet you trust them completely.'

'You were the words I painfully carved deep inside my rotten heart that had already withered away, the thoughts I wished to forget yet continuously chase desperately.'

'If I loved you properly, would you finally embrace me and whisper that I truly do deserve loving a heavenly gift like you?'

"..."

"I brought you a present, my Lord!" The lady ran elegantly across the hallway, her eyes stuck towards the King's fading figure that seemed to be waiting for death to come. Tired, exhausted, finished with life right then and there. The King did not know what to feel anymore, until she came.

"You brought me a gift, dear?" His deep voice went slowly, making it sound as if he is tired and sleep-deprived. "Yes," She excitedly handed out a gift box, as light as a feather, like nothing was inside.

"Are you playing around, sweetheart?" The King slightly confused, asking if the lady is simply bluffing as there was nothing inside the gift box. She shakes her head left and right with a cheeky smile on her vibrant face. "Not in the slightest!"

"The gift is me, my Lord!" She giggled.
"Your present.. is to have me all to yourself with no other share!"

"In that case, I'll gladly appreaciate my present to the fullest." A low chuckle escapes his lips, washing away his sorrow as he lifted up the lady's figure at ease. "Let us have a nice rest tonight, dear." He says, carrying the lady to his royal chambers.

"I noticed, my Lord. You have been feeling exhausted lately." The lady pointed out the words he couldn't bring himself to say. "Is something bothering you?" She asked, yet her words meant gentleness and not to force him to spill it out without his will.

"..You are here with me, and that is what matters now." He replied, giving the lady a light pat across her top hair.

"I am always here for you, my Lord. I will never leave your side, I promise." The lady promises with a gentle smile on her face, resting the side of her face against the King's breathing chest. "Say it with me!"

"Always." He says, smiling.

"..."

'Always?' He repeated, sobbing.

'You promised me you'd never leave my side. You promised that you will always be here with me, yet now you are gone. You had always spilled lies using such a gentle tone, making me believe everything you said. I killed you, why? Why did I kill you?'

'Why.. did I kill you, who I loved the most?'
'Why.. did I kill you, who loved me the most out of every soul that feigned ignorance to me, abandoning me behind that resulted to my pure evilness. Now that you left, I return to pure chaos that faded for you.'

'You changed me into a kind soul,'
'And now that you're gone, I also left the pure kindness that you gave me.'

'When your angelic halo broke into pieces, I carried them in my bloody hands, carving them into two horns and stained them with your blood. With you lying on the grass so peacefully yet dreadfully, you rested your face on my chest with a gentle smile on.'

'I had always blamed myself for killing you so selfishly. I had always showered myself in sorrow and guilt for throwing you away and ending your life just like that. You're here, being tightly embraced within my four arms, all four of my eyes crying their heart for you, yearning for you.'

'Will you lay down with me across a grassfield with no end, allowing the blooming dandelions to speak our words for us, to watch the sun go down beautifully? It would not be as pretty as it is if not for you. You make things beautiful.'

'You were the color of my world. The view of life did not seem as beautiful anymore, now that you're gone. Did the universe tear us apart simply because we do not deserve each other's love and affection?'

'I knew from the start that we were not meant for each other. We did not have the destiny nor the fate that we yearned for.'

'Still, I strive to love you though it is wrong to do so. I will love you even when the entire universe tells otherwise. No one else will get in my way, telling me that I cannot love you. I can and will love you, because I want to love you to the fullest.'

'It is what you deserve. To be loved.'

'Did we not vow to each other that we would wait even a thousand years to have our own children, to have our own pets, to have the royal palace as our 'home'? I swore that I would marry you, to love you that even death would not do us apart.'

'That I would chase you through the skies when the heavens ever take you?'

'I love you, my dear. I truly do.'

'You've always been gone. You were never here. You lied, saying you're here with me, yet you're not. You were never here. Yet you had always been apart of me. You were the person that was meant to save my heart from fully withering away.'

'You.. cured me. You saved me.'
'Yet all I did was hurt you, not knowing how much you truly meant to me.'

'I loved you, and you left me to go to heaven, where you truthfully belonged. But I belong in hell, where I rot along with all of the sins I committed, the ashes of the humans I once brutally killed.'

'Your blood is staining my royal cloth, yet I cry and weep in remorse as the smile on your face remains. You loved me, I killed you. You left me as soon as I changed. Is this my punishment for choosing the wrong path? If I loved you sooner, would you still be alive, waiting for me to return?'

'Would you forgive me and kiss me all over my face as I return home to you?'

'I yearned for you to whisper out my name and giggle through the hallways as I speak love poems to you, my angelic lover that I brutally killed so shamelessly. I yearn for you to come back to me. Please.'

'If I beg the heavens to bring you back to my arms, would I finally have you again?'

'My lady, have I told you how much I loved you? How much I always wished to hear your voice, to hear your soft chuckles, to hear your gentle voice kindly singing lullabies upon my ears to help me sleep.'

'I love you. I loved you. I'll always love you.'