Frozen Heart

Chapter 2: Graveyard shift

"You are not allowed to enter the OT, whether it's a general surgery or a CT surgery for two months. You will be on graveyard shift in the ER and.... I do not, I repeat, I do not want to see you the whole day in the hospital premises as your shift will start at 8:00 pm. If I am to see you before 8:00 pm I will increase it to three months." He ordered.

I wanted to disagree, but I stayed quiet and accepted my defeat. "Yes, sir I will see that your command is obeyed." I crossed my arms.

"You are dismissed."John ended the conversation as I strode towards the door.

What use will I be in the Emergency Room? Trauma patients? Bowel movements? Appendices? Diabetes? Heart attacks? I am Luna James, Dr James I like to be called in the memory of my husband James who worked hard and supported me throughout my medical school. Although he didn't get to see me become a Cardio thoracic Surgeon as he... I looked at my engagement ring on my left hand because I didn't have the courage to take it off and accept the fact that I was the only one who survived that accident which occurred on the New Year's Eve.

I walked to the hallway and I saw Lizzie waiting for me to give her the "NEWS". 

"Well what happened? Did he fire you? Nooooo... I will kill him if I have to."

I looked at her with thoughtfulness. 

"Say something, dumbo!!"

"He banned me from the OT and gave me the ER graveyard shift for two months, it's better than being fired you know." I answered to end her curiosity.

"For sure it is, who doesn't have bills to pay? Speaking of which, where you headed off to?"

"Oh yeah he also ordered me not to be seen on the hospital premises before 8:00 pm. So yeah, I am headed home honey." I said in a sweet voice. She rolled her eyes at me and said, "it is 3:00 am my shift ends at 6:00 am I wish I could go with you." 

"It's okay, I finally get the chance to have some quiet sleep in months. I will enjoy it for sure." She looked at me in disbelief. 

"Who are you and what did you do to our Luna?" 

 I giggled as I said, "Goodbye I'll be on my way otherwise he will make it three months." I winked at her.

Lizzie waved goodbye as I headed towards the dorm to pick up my research and find my car after months spending time in the hospital. Honestly, it seemed a bit weird to me that I was leaving my home to go back home. I found my Tesla in the garage and drove back home, my apartment home to be exact. It was untouched, I remembered Martha texted me that she will swing by on the weekend and clean the whole place up. So it was cleaned and smelled of Lavender purifier which my housekeeper had left on. 

As I laid down to sleep, my bed seemed so huge and colder than the small bed at the dorm. Or maybe it was huge because I missed James's warmth, I realized at that moment I was alone. Alone. I cried myself to sleep that night.

Epilogue:

"James, wake up. We are going to be late to pick up the rental car love." He snuggled his face in my neck more as he moaned. "Come on James you promised a trip at the end of the year", as I printed a peck of kiss on his forehead. He smiled, and kissed me back on my neck. "I am looking forward to this trip too, only if I could have a peek inside... he slipped his hand in my top. 

"No stop, we need to pick up the car from the rental I don't want to waste 300 bucks for your peek. Now make haste love and get up." I got up from the bed and he looked at me with puppy dog eyes. "No seriously, get up we have to get ready. I'm going to prepare some breakfast for our way and please don't take too long in the bathroom."

I started making tomato and cheese omelette. Honestly it feels like it's been a long time since we have been on a trip together, and today I am really excited. There were so many things going on inside my head, my serotonin was so high. Suddenly I heard a bang sound and my heart skipped a beat as I ran towards the bathroom door. I opened the door and found James rubbing his head. 

"What happened babe? Are you ok?"

"Hey, hey, hey I'm ok it's just the cabinet hit my head as I was getting up, why are you turning pale? I'm ok."

"No let me see your head maybe there's a contusion!"

"Oh come on, "contusion" Dr. James it's nothing but a slight bump." As he held me in his arms protectively. I could feel his beating heart against my chest. A sudden startle can release a substance such as adrenaline in your body which increases your heart rate and your heart starts beating rapidly. I touched his bare chest and rubbed against his heart. 

"You're ok, I know it's just that I cannot handle myself seeing you get hurt."

"Baby look at me, I can never see you get hurt because of me." He assured by holding my face in his both hands. I hugged him tightly and close my eyes. It felt perfect when I was in his embrace.