It's been a long time since I wrote to you. First off, I wanted to say that I love and miss you so much. After your funeral, it was never the same. See I'm freaking crying already.
That was very traumatic for me to kiss your forehead and to feel your cold body beneath my lips. That messed me up. But that whole ordeal showed me a glimpse of how life would be. None of my family was there, even the family you have in Jersey, they didn't even bother to show up. Daddy, for you to be the type of person who would do anything for the people you love, your funeral was so empty. I wish that people showed you the same love you gave out. I'm quickly realizing that life is like that. I hate that it has to be like that, but I'm glad I'm learning fast. I'm starting to find peace in being alone, which terrifies me. I used to hate being alone. I used to hate it being quiet. But now that's the only way I can find peace. I love those who love me, and I cannot stress that enough.
Sometimes it really feels like I can't live without you
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Stinkin Thinkin
Non-FictionI've been struggling with depression for some time now and I'm trying so hard to overcome it but these are just some of the thoughts that runs through my head constantly that I need to let out so I put it in writing. *****This might contain "trigger...
