The Sacrifice

chapter 3 (illumination)

Illumination

𝗝𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗰𝗮 𝗽𝗼𝘃........

Hnn. I am devasted. It happens when you waste your time to find something important but are not able to find it, then you feel why you waste your important minutes to that thing.

тнιя∂ ρσν........

Jessica was not in a good mood. With a sigh, she sit on the floor and near the window of the library. Library was never full, very few students come to the library so there were so strict rules to the sitting arrangement. She was looking outside the window.

JᎬᏕᏕᎨᏨᎯ ᏢᎾᏉ.......

There are some times when I feel very bored like now. I wonder what would it have been like, if I also would had a family. Someone waiting for me in my home.

At least, I would not have been lonely.

Sometimes I feel that what it would have been like, if I had got a chance to do what I want to do rather than thinking about the methods to survive. I love singing. There was a time when I wanted to be a singer but now it feels like it could only happens in the dreams.

Sigh.

Studying. Studying and becoming something, this is only what I can do now. Why am so selfish yar? There are only few people who are able to get education and I am getting it, still I have so many complaints. How could I be so childish yar?

There are many people who don't have enough money to  buy food for themselves and here I am studying in one of the best schools. Still I am not satisfied. Still I feel something is not fair.

These thoughts make me feel really terrible.

Mom dad,                                    why did you left me. What was so bad about me? She questions but there was no one who could answer it.

With this Jessica was near to tears but she hold it. Not letting a drop of it falling from her eyes.

"Jess, what happened? "

I looked at the voice of the person, it was of my classmate lily.

"Nothing."

"Is everything okay? " With this lily sat behind me.

"Ya, what are you holding? " I said pointing towards the books she had holded.

"Science, I am not good in it. So trying to learn that much so that i would be able to get passing marks. " She said with positioning her specks at right position. "You tell me why we're you sitting alone"

With a laugh"nothing.it was just I was finding a novel for me to read but did not find any of my liking. So I was sad about it. You know I tried so hard but dont find any. "

"Oh."

"Well, I think I should go, milie would have been waiting for me. So bye, take care. Don't stress yourself with studies a lot. You know right. "

She smiles at my words. It feels awesome when people around you are happy. It gives a very positive feeling that everything is fine or one day it will be fine.

Then I went back to mile and then again classes. I have not enough energy to share my boring experience of it with anyone.

Then me and milie go to different direction towards our home.

I went to my best buddie, my company, my bicycle. I had thought to give it a nickname but then I thought that maybe it will sound cringe. So drop the idea.

"So let's go byki. I am telling you, if you will stay with me alltime upto my death, I will never think about purchasing a car or anything. "

"So let's move byke. "