Reverie of a Soldier

the war

As he rummages through the inner workings of his mind
He recalls why he came to this horrific place
Why he tossed his own beliefs and morals aside
A thought he has repeated so many times
Now seems to have less conviction
He is there for his family
To give them pride and glory
For their future
But it is a future
He may never see

Does this give them glory?
Will his son be proud of the war hero father
He will never meet?
Maybe never love?
He lies there and ponders