S.W.A.T

S.W.A.T 22

Hamani

Zyra put me in the passenger seat, as she sat in the drivers.

I looked outside the window since it felt like I could only do. Her eyes were burning through my head.

She drove not saying a word.

The silence was uncomfortable, the question were gonna be posed sooner or later.

Getting my breathing to regulate was a little difficult. "I'm sorry" I heard Zyra apologize.

"For what?" I asked quietly,"for dragging you to school, this would never happen if you didn't go" she explained.

"It's not your fault" I mumbled. It wasn't her fault, I didn't want her to feel bad or guilty for something she didn't cause.

"I'm still-"

"It's not so don't worry about it" I cut her off. We arrived at the house & Zyra opened the car door for me.

"You guys are back early what- are you okay sweetheart?" She asked concerned.

My face was probably red from the crying.

"N-no" I stuttered out. "What happened?" I don't know what Zyra was mouthing to her behind me.

I just went upstairs not saying a word.

Laying on the floor is exactly what I felt like doing so I did. I was too tired to even reach the bed.

I was sprawled out,on the floor. After 5 minutes I finally got the power to get to the bed.

Faced the wall, I did feel embarrassed over what I did to myself.

Tears were rolling down my face quickly. I started crying,sobbing. I hated when people threw myself harm in my face.

It was humiliating, Desi didn't say that out loud tho, she mumbled it to me, which caused me to push her.

Could've done so much better with the situation.

But self harming felt like the only thing I could do to let all the pain out.

Every fucking day is a challenge & struggle for me to stay clean.

"Baby"

"Mhm"

"You want a hug?"

"Yes please"

I turned over, seeing Zyra with open arms waiting for me. She came closer wrapping me in one.

Her hugs were comforting, they could reassure anyone. She may have a cold wall,but once you get past it she's a warm person.

"I'm sorry that she threw that in your face" Zyra mumbled. She sat down on the bed with me on her lap.