To the girl of my dreams

teehee

I first met you in 7th grade. I was very depressed and not well that year mentally, and you were someone that I could not talk to about my feelings but someone that could make me laugh and make me feel something other than anxiety and fear. I'm not gonna you were kind of annoying sometimes with all the, "would you rather lick Donald Trump's big toenail or sleep with ed Sheeran" you always did a lot of those back then probably 9 or 10 a day and I only saw you for lunch and recess.
I saw you a couple of times through-out the year in 8th grade. We never had any classes together that year or any time where we would pass in the hall. But the only time I ever really saw you was after pep rallies and in special events like the dance at the end of the year. Oh my gosh thinking about that makes me laugh I remember we were together through the entire dance and I remember I got one of the nasty popcorn chickens they had on the food table and threw it into the crowd of people and probably scared someone pretty bad. I remember we took a picture together at the photo stand. I still have it, you wore a blue silk dress if I could remember and I wore a pink flowery farm type dress. Its kind of funny how much of a height difference we have you usually have to bend down to hear me talk in a loud room.
I really should not sulk so much over you. After all we would probably see eachother at certain events like football games, but you never really liked going to those did you? Maybe I can force you to go. I guess what I'm saying is I really miss you. I really miss our lunches in the corner of the cafeteria just you and me. I just want to see you sitting next to me at the table again talking about God knows what.
I'm not really sure if I feel feelings of love for you or just platonic I really cannot tell.
But all I know is I care for you more than I have ever expressed and I will continue to hold you high in my heart.