Stupid Girl That Won't Ever Leave My Mind

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Hey girl,
Today the wifi was out at school, I wonder if it was for you too or maybe it was just my school. When I'm at school I can't seem to think of you as much, probably because I need my brain to be focused on schoolwork and getting places on time. You usually fill my brain when there is nothing for it to medal on.

Now that I think about it, you were my awakening for liking girls. I never really found any specific girl I had a crush on when I was younger but yet I felt like I always had a thing for girls. I remember my first time about hearing about being gay, at first I thought it was strange and bizarre, but in the end I realized I didn't care and it wasn't my problem.

I'm sorry my brain is quite all over the place while writing this I wish I could keep my thoughts in line.

I remembered something the other day, I remembered that day in mister Clemson class where I sat behind you. The fire alarm went off in the middle of class, also while it was pouring down rain. Neither you, me or Miya had a umbrella so we opted to using our jackets in the pouring rain. Marley using her own and you got under my small jacket. You hogged almost the entire jacket from how our height difference made it hard to shuffle around and keep the jacket even. But I remember how it felt to stand under the damp cold jacket freezing in the rain of February, but next to you I felt so very warm. We stood out there in the rain for so long it felt like years. When we went back my head was soaking wet and my hair frizzed up from the humidity.
We had a lot of days like that didn't we? I remember feeling a strange tension I had never felt before it was so slight and small that I could barely feel it so hidden and secret that I never noticed I only felt it around you. Something I can only feel faintly in my memory from you.
It burns and aches not to be near you. Leaving you left such a large crater in my heart that you could only fill.
Day by day I'm working on filling that hole with wonderful people in my life but it makes me so angry and furious that it can't be you.

Because all I really wanted was you. All I really needed ever, was you. Just you. Every peice of you I will take it all. I want to stop wishing for you. I want to stop the yearning and just to be with you. Your like a stupid slippery snake I can't ever catch.

But here I am writing these feelings in this dumbass Wattpad story instead of telling you. Sorry for sounding so agitated I think I'm just being very gay and lonely.

Okay any ways toodaloo💃🚪
I can't find the stupid ass walking emoji so I guess I'm dancing out the door