Stupid Girl That Won't Ever Leave My Mind

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Hey, I thought of you alot today. How do you always manage to find your way into my thoughts when I'm doing something? I'm currently writing this on the bus ride home I wish I could learn how to drive with the snap of my fingers but thats not possible sadly. The air conditioner on the bus is broken it barely pumps out cool air, so we are left to cook in this burning hot bus of early September in the South. I can almost hear you complaing about the heat. last year you would almost every other day walk me to my bus, telling me about some new history fact from 900 BCE. A lot of the time I would smile and nod cause I can't keep up with your ramblings and nonsense but every once in a while I would make a joke about something you just told me or make fun of the way you are almost yelling this information at me. You would always hit me not too hard or whine, it was funny. In freshman year we saw eachother every other day and sat together for lunch every A day. This was my favorite part of the day sitting and eating alone with you talking nonsense with you. I liked this time with you. It felt exclusive and entertaining. Whenever we would have a additional third person sitting with us which could vary depending on when, but it always felt like us and your friend Steve. You liked to sit inside in the freezing cold air conditioning, I liked sitting outside on the benches in the nice sun. We would always fight over where to sit because the other would whine and complain over the temperature. I don't really like to admit it but I really do miss you. I never realized how much laughing and smiling I did around you until it was gone. I miss you emailing me weird images and weird AI art you made to make me laugh in the dead silent classroom. I miss your complements a lot too. Your complements always felt special to me,  more than what anyone else can make me feel from just a few words. You often said I was cute and you wanted to squeeze me over a outfit I was wearing or a hairstyle I had did up it always made my heart tingle. I remember when I would have a club meeting you would always show up even though you weren't in the club. You would sit there with me. I could just say you were there for the food but you always make things so much more interesting. Even though you have to change into your JROTC outfit or only had a couple of minutes to spare you would come to see me. I wish you weren't so stuck in my mind, I wish I could do anything without being reminded of you but it cannot be hepled. I saw you the other day getting on the bus. I can't talk to you though because of the tight timing for the bus's and I do not feel like being left behind. Your hair looked different it was in a slick back sidepart, that's the only way i can properly explain it. I'm guessing it was for JROTC but it looked pretty on you. It feels like this year I can only watch you from afar from this bus window in the early morning or late afternoon. I feel like I'm stuck on the sidelines watching you, your so out of reach but if I try hard enough maybe I can reach you. I hope you have a great rest of highschool and I hope your thinking about me as much as I think about you, because if not this would just be embarrassing.