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Heart ache

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I woke up earlier than intended clearly shown by the fact that the lights where out the only light seen are the little red light in the top left of the camera I debated just from going to sleep or just think and i would have gone to sleep but my mind kept racing with thoughts

What will they do to me?
Why are they going to do those things to me?
Will they tie me up like an animal?
Will they sedate me?
Fuck up my mind so bad that they'll do a lobotomy on me?
Will my mind break from the experiments?

Surely it medicine testing and not anything else right???
I mean I know there's evil and there's a lot of it with these sickos but surely they won't alter me right???

My thoughts and paranoid and worried eventually my "neighbor" woke up without me noticing
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Sebastian's Pov:
I begin opening my eyes and scan across my room and mapping things in my head in graving it so I can see it even when I close my eyes,drawing a mental map of this place

I noticed my "buddy" as they once said in passing conversation at first it kinda worried me not knowing if they had some kind of sleep walking or mental illnesses

They are quite and observant and people like that tend to be really smart though I don't know them enough to tell though so far I can tell they are kind and cautious and seems to be nervous a lot

I can tell from the fact that they fiddle with their nails while what I assume when they think
Honestly I thought they were really annoying and bit of an air head since they kept managing to sit near me or be near me
Wait.why am I thinking about this when I have better things to worry about than them like how imma get out of this
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Minutes Passed till two laboratory nurses arrived and lead me and Sebastian to new torture room for thier wicked pleasure meanwhile we chatted quietly between our walk

-"morning"

"Morning,I noticed you were awake at crack of dawn for whatever reason,don't tell me that you had a little wittle nightmare?~"he said with a baby voice at the last part

-"Aw~why you want to know?worried~?"i sass back playfully since it seems he wants to lighten the mood before these psycho do gods knows what with us

We continue on with the walk casual low talk between us as we head to our separate room they take me to a different one from yesterday I seems larger  with cabinets and desks upper floor and the floor beneath more spacious albeit with cabinets of medicines and syringes to put it in short although there's a bunch of more stuff that I have no clue what they're called nor their porpoise

As I sit down in the medical chair that looks awful lot like a operation table with strong fabric that seems like it's meant to hold people down and can easily hold me down as well

I sit in place observing quietly holding my body as close to me and try to calm down
Remember to breathe I tell myself
INHALE
EXHALE
INHALE
EXHALE
Eventually 2 doctor or at least what I assume by the clothing and 3 assistants with the same outfit like the women before that assisted for my check up had

They brought out an anesthesia machine  as I asked them trying to hide the panic in the voice
-"so um what will you guys do to me?" Glancing around between all of the medical staff and researcher

" our higher  up order us to do some moderate altercations but don't worry we'll make this progress as  pain free as possible,if you obey what we say and follow instructions and we'll will not have to do unsavory actions towards you" said the doctor his facial and voice completely monotone like he's done this many times

Not that I doubt it he seems quite a old fart I mean the guy looks like he pimps chickens with a doctor role play and been alive sense the dinosaurs for crying out loud

-"What are the unsavory consequences?.." I asked nervously last thing I would want to find out they will do to me is to torture me into submission or worse

"If you'll behave it won't be something to worry about just lay down and nurse ///////// will assist you into place"

-"WAIT wait wait im so how painful will it be??"scared i asked the nurse that approach me and attempted to lay me down like a misbehaving child into the hospital bed with restraining that they'll most likely tie me down with

"It feel like just a pinch"
She tells me putting into place buckling the last of the restraints on before looking at the other nurses and doctors, I flex my arms to see how tight it is and holy shit it's so tight is even a little hard to move my finger I barely catch the nurse say to his colleagues
"so patient will have —..........." my world fade to back as soon after they put anesthesia on me
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Red,red everywhere
Oww what the hell is this pain and this numbness
I unconsciously and groggily move as an attempt to move to more comfortable position then I feel the tightness of the binds as the pains grows and grows

Why I'm I feeling like this?..
Wait..
WAIT IM BEING EXPERIMENTED ON
I open my eyes as quickly as possible remembering of the previous memories

Only to be meet with lights shining in my face and doctors with masks and surgical outfits to match slender knifes piercing my skin into my muscle tissue and big syringes into my main veins with bloods of red and blue the  pain worsened to the point it was unbearable

-"PLEASE STOPP"I yelled out in desperation my ears ringing so loud I couldn't hear anything what was going around me I could barely hear my own shouts the world spinning so saturated that it looked almost plain white I could only see very saturated colors of white and red

-" PORFAVOR PARA" (please stop)

-"AYUDAAA"(helpp)

-"ME ESTAN MATANDO"(theyre killing me)

-"DIOS MIO PORFAVOR HAS QUE ESTO PARE"
(my god please stop this)

-"MAMA"

-"PAPA"

-MAMI PAPI AYUDA ME PORFAVOR"
(mommy daddy please help)

-"NOMAS ESTA VES PERDON MAMI PAPA"
(Just this once I'm sorry mommy dad)

-"PAPA IM SORRY" (dad I'm sorry)

-"MAMI SERE MEJOR LO PROMETO"
(mommy I'll be better)

-"DIOS AYUDA ME"(god please help me"

I cry out thrashing in my place more hell spawns push me down as one of them says

"SHIT UP YOU WASTE OF SPACE SIT STILL GOD DAMM IT"

The pain got worse and worse blood everywhere my stomach with the sucking warmness of it and the shiny of it and how clear you can see every fiber bloood quickly rushing out like the doctor are with the white  fat underneath the thin layer of muscle tissue and skin breached and they were stitching It up with black string my world crashed down into pure white and red my mind no longer being abled to process this horrible disgusting iron smell and Clorox
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A/N:HEYY OMG IM SO SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG I WAS HABING A MOMMENT OF WRITTERS BLOCK BUT IT ALL GOOD

ALSO I BASED THIS FROM AND PERSONAL EXPERIENCE OF MINE THAT ONE TIME I ACCIDENTALLY CUT MYSELF SO DEEP AND CLEAN THAT IT PIRCED THROUGH MY SKIN/MUSCLE LAYER AND COULD SEE MY FAT LAUER OF MY ARM AND HAD TO GET 4-5 STITCHES FOR IT LOL NOT FUN AT ALL I ALMOST PASSED OUT FROM SHOCN N I BERELY HEAR ANYTHING THAN A CONSTANT RINGING

SO UM BECAREFUL AND DONT DO STUPID SHIT LIKE I DID ╰(*'︶'*)╯♡