ONE STEP CLOSER, TO LOST YOU

CHAPTER 2: MEET ME

While he was listening to the elders, he saw someone coming a handsome one that every girl or man could fall in love. He can not form any words because of how shocking he was.
“ hi?, done checking me?.” Thyne said with his eye brow raise.

“ uhh... i.. didn’t”. “ oh is that  so?”.

While thyne teasing klein. They have been interrupting by the sadden voice of his mother yumi.
“did you know  klein”?

“ no mom” klein said.

After onward they discusse about the wedding. Mrs kim spoke and told klein that he would show around. So after onward thyne and klein are their in the balcony like there are the nothing to talk like the atmosphere has been so dark and has a thunder it has. Like this two person standing a darkness for their both past, a past that can ruin your own self.
     There just standing at the balcony listening to the thunder of the darkness on the sky, a darkness that full of hopeless decision. A darkness that no one could know the decision they would be ever grab. While the silent continuous one of them break the silent for the sake of their own perspective.

  “ I want to tell you that the marriage was just a force, a force that the both of us would never be want. A type of marriage that can ruin my own reputation, so if you don’t want this marriage we can cancel it” thyne said.
Klein was lost at his own that some what feel like he has a choice for this situation he just enter.
“ I want this marriage” klein said.

Thyne was shock he thought that this guy would be said no I don’t want this marriage but all of his thought was hopeless cause the answer of the younger.

         Marriage is the life time decision , once you choose this path you can not go anywhere  but for the life time it take. This decision could made you regret but never go back. You would stay the rest of your life. But klein had no choice so he still choose the happiness of his own parents but not the happiness he does. How come he would say no when the taught of having him would be the choose he wanted but for the certain man he just nothing for him. because thyne don’t want to fall inlove again, it because he fall inlove in a certain person that broke his heart. How would he open his heart to fall inlove again if the trauma was still there.
     Klein always want love but he scared to be loved, in way that he would be hurt if he will be loved, all he want is to be protected and made him realize that he is worth to love. But how can be trust the people around him, if a certain people was always made him hurt. Paano siya magiging masaya kung sariling magulang ang nagpipigil na maging masaya siya. Paano niya malalaman ang tunay na kahulugan nang pagmamahal kung sila mismo di man lang maiparamdam.
   “ klein kim, remember this I will never fall inlove to you, I will never open up my heart for a person who will hurt me more, so please don’t hope that it would change, sa sitwasyon na meron ako. Lalo na wag mo akong sisihin kung masasaktan ka sa piling ko kase sinabi ko naman sayon na di ako magiging masaya sa piling mo. Pinili mo toh so dapat handa ka sa kahahantugan.”thyne said

My heart ache when thyne said all of this word. Di ko alam kung bat ko nararamdaman ito. Gulong gulo ako unang pagkikita pa lang naming nahulog na ba ako agad?or it’s just the beginning of my misery because of this feeling, sabi ko ng ana ayoko na buksan ang damdamin at puso ko pero bakit ganito  kusa nalang bukas para sa isang taong ngayon ko lang nakilala at namasdan. Maaring gusto ko na siya ngunit hindi pwede dahil sinabi na naman na sa akin na hinding hindi niya ako magusgustuhan at hindi na niya kayang mahalin ako. Am all listening to what he is talking after onward some one call us.

“come down boys dinner is ready” mom said.

We both go down stair  and sit with the elder and we eat silently. Then mr. jeon speak” okay your marriage will be this coming week so prepared”. We both nod on what mr. jeon said.

     In this time we both go shopping for our wedding attaire, but we look like nothing cause I am just the one who like this marriage a one decide love or a marriage. Ako lang yung may gusto nito, kaya sana habang tumugal ay kaya na niya na akong tignan nang walang galit at pasakit sa kaniyang mga mata.

     After an hour we both buy what we need and now where here in our mansion, I want to talk with him but I have no courage to talk and face his eye with regret and anger. So better to not talk with him. Both of them talk with my father for this upcoming wedding week.ao am here in the sofa just listening to what they talk. Nakikinig na para bang hindi ko na alam ang sarili ko kung gagawin ko pa ito para sa pamilya ko or pasa sarili ko.
   Ilang minute lang ay nagpaalam na silang uuwi. “ were going home, rafael’. Mr. jeon
“okay then ingat”at umuuwi nan ga sila nang tuluyan. Habang ako I go up stair pumunta na ako sa kwarto ko at nagpahinga na may tulo nang aking luha. Na sa itong decision ko ay tama kahit alam ko namang masasaktan ako sa huli, ngunit gagawinko ito para sa aking magulang upang kahit minsan ay tamang decision ito. I hope I will endure the pain I will have. Then tuluyan na akong natulog na may mga luha sa aking mata.