Sweet Deception

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And maybe sometimes it's better to just let go. That's what my mom always tells me. I've never understood why she would tell me that so often, till this day came...

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Hi my name is elianja, I know, not a very common name. I don't know what went through my parents head while thinking of a name for me. Anyway I still love it.

Being a 21 year old is boring, I always thought that the second I turn 20 my whole life would change, I thought I would be the next Victoria secret model. The new IT GIRL. Well I was completely wrong. My life got only more boring than it already was.

Other people my age go party every weekend, while one of the the only party's I've ever attended was my best friend's birthday.

Sammy... how I love that girl, even though she was the complete opposite of me. She was that popular, beautiful, might even say most sexiest girl in the whole campus. With her long brown hair and beautiful big brown eyes, that everyone seemed to love.

Till this day I can't seem to understand why she chose me to be her best friend, I don't want to sound self conscious or anything but I am just not as popular as her. I'm always just ,,Sammy's friend."

That's not because I'm weird or ugly, it's just because I am not really a talkative person.

I like to have a small circle of friends. Because having many friends means that you have to have time for every single one of them. And that's just not on my list.

We have been friends since middle school, she was always the popular one. Right now we are in college. I'm studying law while she decided to focus on accounting. Some people call it ,,daddy's money," I call it brains and beauty...

Being a full time law student and keeping up with my gym routine is really hard, but if that's what makes me feel fulfilled then so be it. I love the gym, I know, weird to hear from a person like me, but yes we exist.

Luckily money was never a problem for me and my family, my dad has his own business and my mom has her own law firm

Now you probably understand why I chose law in the first place.

I have a loving family but my dad still can be really harsh on me when it comes to my education. I always feel the pressure to give 100% in every little thing, sometimes he would make me feel bad about not being the best.

,,You can not complain about a bad life in the future, if you don't live one now," that's what my dad always says.

To him it is all about making money. Sammy always tells me to quit law school and choose my own path, but I just can't disappoint my parents. They are everything to me.

My mom used to be a model back in her days in Ecuador, with beautiful green eyes and a tanned skin while being 5'10. But she quit it after moving to California to become a lawyer, she's a stunning woman.

I couldn't ask for a better woman to be my mom, she's kind, easy to talk to and not to forget very supportive. She also told me to not study law if it didn't make me happy but deep down I knew that my dad would be disappointed in me.

But my dad is not that bad either. He loves me but just doesn't know how to show it. I one time told him that I was feeling down because of something, and not even 2 hours later I saw that he had booked a two days trip to New York for me and Sammy.

It may sound like I am living the perfect life and I don't want to complain, I am living a really good life and wish that everyone could live a life like mine. But if you grow up having everything you don't really get to know the real world.