my first love wasn't my first boyfriend
he wasn't even my first crush
my first love was the boy who looked at me a little too long to be my friend
the boy who i stayed on the phone with until it was too late to sleep
he was the one who was always too close for my boyfriends to like
but far enough to never be one the boy who would be the biggest lesson
because he was the biggest heartbreak
the boy who i search for in everyone else
