Serendipity's Kiss (Porderios Series 1)

PROLOGUE

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I'm here again, standing inside the darkness. I've been walking endlessly, even a gleam of light can't be seen. It's like the absence of all things. No light and sound.

Walking in this nothingness. Imagine how tired it made me, mentally.

Napabugtong hininga na lamang ako.

"I'm too tired for this!" I said at the back of my head. Napanaginipan ko na naman kasi ulit 'tong di ko maintindihan na panaginip. Ang weird lang din kasi. Really weird

I'm actually starting to doubt everything that's been happening to me, recently. Recent events that seem mysterious to me.

As you can see...

It's been 4 years since I've dreamt of something similar to this and it's always a void. A void that swallows me and makes me walk nonstop. Reaching for a destination that is unknown.

Take note all of it are embedded in my mind. Detail by detail.

Tapos ang ginawa ko lang palakad lakad lang kahit wala naman talagang patutunguhan.

And who's dumb enough to do that shit? Me!

It's not like I'm obligated to walk nonstop. It's just the urge inside me just tells me to go and look. That's why I'm heading towards it, searching.

Syempre, gustong gusto ko na nahihirapan din. Thrill daw kamo.

Nakakunot ang noo ko habang ini-obserbahan ang madilim na paligid. Wala naman din akong makita para lang ako lasing na dire-diretso lumusong sa kadiliman para makauwi ng bahay or ano ba.

Not from my experience ah, gawain lang ng tito ko dati, lasinggero kasi. 'kala mo nga aswang kasi madaling araw nandidisturbo sa pamilya namin. 'di kasi pinapasok ng asawa niya, kaya samin ang bagsak. Hayss, sana naman uminom lang in moderation. 'di yung iinom ng walang bukas. Baka 'di na talaga siya makakita ng bukas niyan. Hindi ba naman kinalma ang atay.

Buhay pa naman din naman si tito. Not that I wanted him to die. Swerte niya lang and bahala na sila sa buhay nila, malalaki na sila.

Napabugtong hininga nalamang ako para makalma ang sarili ko. Pagod na nga ako kakalakad ko (Mentally) tas may dumadagdag pa sa isip ko.

Mind you, nasa isip ko, ako. Tapos ganto pa nangyayari sa'kin.

Just imagine how draining it is for me, to be here again and doing these things all over again. Walking and wandering. Repeat.

"It's just a dream, it's just a dream" I repeatedly said in the back of my head.

You sure it's a dream?

'di mo knows kung dream ba talaga, malay mo na engkanto na pala ako. Wag naman sana.

Humiga nalamang ako sa sahig habang nakapikit ang aking mga mata. Naramdaman ko ang lamig ng sahig pero hindi ko na ito pinansin pa.

Tama 'yan magpahinga nalang.

Better than walking in a place that's a stygian void. Pahingahin ko muna sarili ko, wala naman akong makukuha dito sa kakalakad ko. Pagod lang for sure.

Then...what if  suddenly may manggulat sa'kin dito because my mind keeps playing on me. Minsan  kasi laro din ang mga isip natin, tinatakot ba naman ang sarili.

Tapos grabe ka active yung utak, tuloy tuloy lang pumapasok na mga thoughts. Unending.

I took a deep breath then sighed.