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𝐒𝐘𝐃𝐍𝐄𝐘𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕 ༊*·˚ (TW: small mentions of an eating disorder)
I LAY ON MY BED LISTENING TO WALKERS PLAYLIST TITLED 'Walker's Playlist'. Creative I know, but that's Walker for you. I had been trying to distance myself from social media since that post was made. Not the best idea to do in a situation like this but the hate had flooded my dms immediately, since Madi and Jack were trying to defend me in my absence I knew that the hate was probably flooding them too.
The sound of 'Lacy' by Olivia Rodigo flooded my ears, one of Walkers guilty pleasure songs. I couldn't help but start to think about Amber, she's always had more than me but as soon as something good happens to me she crushes everything I had in between her fingers. In my eyes I always saw Amber as my best friend, she was the girl I'd look at when our teacher told us to pair up, she was the girl who helped me during my first period, hell she even helped me through my ed recovery.
Yet she was the girl who implanted ideas in my mind that drove me into relapsing. Before I knew it I felt my warm tears fall from the corners of my eyes onto my pillow. I couldn't believe I was crying over a girl like Amber. Out of everyone why her? How can a person like Amber be so awful yet so perfect.
To this day I still don't know what caused the switch from loving me to hating me to go off. All I know is that one day I messaged her that I felt too weak to come to school that day and then the next I watched as people whispered about me in the halls like I was in some sort of high school movie. Amber was nowhere to be found for the rest of that week.
I decide to distract myself by swiping up on my do not disturb. Dumb idea for a girl who's getting death threats but all I really wanted was a text from Madi or Jake. To my surprise I had my first message from Walker in about a week.
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IMESSAGE : WALKERRR 🦈
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walkerrr 🦈 hey you ok?
syd 🎷 are you okay? where's your capitals at the start of your sentence?
walkerrr 🦈 habit I picked up from you awhile ago just decided to deactivate the autocaps
walkerrr 🦈 I was more meaning about the hate stuff though
syd 🎷 oh yeah I'm okay
walkerrr 🦈 you sure? I just talked to amber after I saw her new instagram post because I got really confused
syd 🎷 wouldn't know I have her blocked
walkerrr 🦈 Sydney I want to be on your side but I need to know the full story. I have a feeling that whatever ambers telling me is complete bullshit
walkerrr 🦈 Leah and Aryan are on your side too, we're trying to get Dior and Charlie to understand our viewpoint but it's hard with no evidence
syd 🎷 can we ft?
walkerrr 🦈 is that easier for you than typing it out?
syd 🎷 yeah
walkerrr 🦈 whatever you want then syd
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KARMA SPEAKS! struggled a little bit writing this as doja cat was blasting in my headphones talking about sum 'I heard from a friend of a friend' yada yada anyways if this chap makes no sense SORRY!! 😁✌️ (not) p.s (yes I am because I actually become illiterate when listening to music)
