Carrington

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I curl up in bed with Dex as I get a few texts by Tara Johnnie and Jake but non from Carrington.

I start to drift off before I get a DM.

Vinnie Hacker

Hey I assume you saw Jake's video. I don't remember shit other than you so if thought to try and text you.

Hey Vinnie, yeah I am so so sorry about that video, and whatever even happened I was drunk as hell I'm not normally like that.

No you're okay, I clearly enjoyed it haha.

It's nice to talk to you sober.

Yeah lol

And I'm sorry for almost throwing up on you, I heard i ran away

No you're okay

Everything is perfect.

I am gonna try and sleep

Okay goodnight!

Goodnight!

I look at my account debating on deleting the photos I have with the boys and I decide to think about it in the morning.

—

I wake up to my phone ringing so I look over and see my agent calling.

"Hey Kathy?" I answer.

"Adriana are you willing to do an emergency modeling gig?" She asks me and I sit up.

"Why?" I start to get out of bed putting food in Dex's food bowl.

"The girl got sick and can't take the photos, they called me to ask if you would do it, you'd have to fly out to Las Vegas Nevada." She says and I stop in my tracks.

"When is this?"

"You'd have to fly out tonight at 8pm sleep then go there at 7am." She explains.

"The brand?"

"Victoria Secret." She explains and I get excited.

"Tell them I'll do it."

"I already knew what your answer would be they know." She laughs. "Get your stuff ready you'll be there for 3 days, you'll be okay don't stress about it."

"Bye Kathy I love you." I laugh.

"Love you too girl." She says hanging up.

I stretch and go pee quick looking at my notifications.

Carring❤️

Can we talk?

I sit and look at the text for a while unsure what I'm supposed to even say. Then people I thought were my closest friends all lied to me even Tara. Why would they do this. I guess you can't get too close too fast.

I have to catch a flight to Nevada at 8pm, you've got 7 hours to get your shit together to figure out what to say before I'm gone for the next 3 days.

Okay, I'll be over in an hour.

Ok

The worry of what he might say begins to cloud any thoughts about packing clothes, maybe I'll just buy new clothes there. I have money for it since I started posting on instagram more.

The hour comes by fast and only 1 outfit has been made for my trip. I frown when I hear a knock at the door.

Here comes my anxiety.

I make my way to the front door and open it to see Carrington standing there. He avoids eye contact so I step out of the way to allow him to come in.

"Anna." He lifts his head up pulling me into a hug. I allow him to hold me.

He pulls me in tightly. His thumb rubbing my back. I lift my arms so I'm hugging him back and we sit there for what seems like an entire hour.

I finally break the hug and look at him, his eyes look so sad.

"I still have to pack and find out what I'm doing with Dex so please just let's get to the point." I cross my arms in a protective stance.

"Anna i am deeply sorry. I was wrong, you are right i was selfish and was just worried about me. But it's not just me, everyone was worried about me leaving nobody for you. You didn't have anyone worried for you to take care of you and I am really sorry. Tara has been blowing me up and probably you up, she is so sorry. We all are." He says with genuine concern in his voice.

"Carrington you can say all of this and I can forgive you but what am I supposed to do about trust? How am I supposed to be confident that this won't happen again, that the people I thought were my closest friends won't keep secrets from me again, how can I trust that. I get it I trusted you guys way to fast and I'm slowing down I've only known you guys a month, I shouldn't have let it move so fast so I'm sorry about that."

"Why are you apologizing for that? Ann everyone likes you, shit everyone loves you it's been the best month of all our lives. We hooked up and I was scared because it was the best sex of my life.  So I lied, and convinced everyone else to lie. I'm not sure what I can do to fix this, to become friends again." He reaches for my hand and I reluctantly take it, "Ann please take these three days to your self think about what you feel is best, I just want you to know we all absolutely love you and don't want to loose you about this."

"I don't know what to say." I avoid his eyes, "I have to figure out what I am going to wear, I'll talk to you in 3 days."

He frowns looking up at the ceiling for a second before pulling me into another hug, "do what you feel is best for you, I'll be here to support you no matter what."

"Thank you." I feel tears coming but I quickly catch them and shove them away.

"I know it's quick but I do love you Anna. You are my closest friend." He holds me tightly. We stay there for a while longer before he breaks the hug, "bye Anna." He kisses my forehead and walks out shutting my front door.

The second my door clicks the lump in my throat makes itself apparent and the tears come flying out. I drop to the floor crying, crying like I haven't done in a long time.

Everything comes out.

-

After I finally gather myself together I wipe my face and do what I need to do prepping for my trip.

I get all of my packing done adding a few in case outfits and underwear then I'm on my way to the airport in a Uber praying Kat will give Dex some extra attention while I'm gone.

This is all so fucked.

-

When the plane lands I consider texting one of the guys or Tara but ultimately decide against it. I instead send a text to Kat then make my way out to the Uber Victoria Secret called for me.

When I get to the hotel I fall straight asleep.