crossroads to the beginning

Six

Its, Monday that means campus it was weird waking up in the boy's house don't get me wrong I'm grateful for everything that they are doing for us but we all just have different routines. I woke up early this morning to use the gym which is in the basement I thought I'd be alone, but I was greeted by Dean who looks like he was here for a while, his lifting weights and stopped midway to nod to me in a greeting I waved back and couldn't help and notice his biceps I stood there for at least a solid 5 minutes admiring his body before I snapped myself out of it, making my way to the treadmill I put music on and run. He finishes up with the weights and goes to do pull ups which is right in front of me. Kill me now I'm faced with his back which should be better than his face because if he saw how I was starring right now, I am surprised I could keep up with the pace I'm running on because I feel like I stared at him till he was done.

"You can stop staring" he says jumping off and turning around. I don't know what to say I am shocked how did he know I gather myself "I was not" I say he doesn't seem convinced "whatever you say" he tells me and walks up the stairs and out the door "you idiot" I say to myself out loud I hear him chuckle oh my god he heard me. After my work out I go to the shower and get done for class. I am looking through my clothes because not everything is unboxed yet and I hear Marley wake up "you up already?" she asks rubbing her eyes waking up "yea did a workout" I answer "so early" she says I just nod. She gets up takes her clothes and goes out the room probably to the bathroom. "What to wear" I ask myself searching through my clothes its cold but not too cold outside so I don't want to overheat, and I don't want to freeze. I stop in my tracks when I see it the clothes from Saturday night.

"You are playing dirty Gaby "

no no no no I say holding my head in my hands,

"You are playing dirty Gaby "

"Don't cry Gaby" I tell myself as I close my eyes trying to stop the flashbacks "Don't cry" I say sliding down the wall bringing my legs up, resting my head in my legs, rocking back to front

"You are playing dirty Gaby "

"no" I say wiping my tears I get up and scratch through my clothes settling for a hoody and jeans I put my hair up in a ponytail. I can feel the tears still running down my face, but I ignore it, I shouldn't be crying why am I this weak? "Hey Gaby!" I hear Dan at the door I wipe my face and try to sound as normal as possible "Yeah?" I say but my voice breaks, shit "Are you okay can I come in?" Dan says "Uhm yeah just feeling a bit sick I'm dressing what's up?" I say hoping he buys it "Uh okay what do you want for breakfast" Dan asks I don't think he bought it but he won't ask again "Whatever you having I normally just have a muffin and coffee" I say "Okay come down when you're done" I wipe my face with a face wipe and do some make up to cover my puffy eyes, thanks make up.

"Morning" I greet as I enter the kitchen, Dan is prepping plates for what seems like everyone "coffee is over there" he says pointing to the pot of coffee behind him "Hey Gaby" Sam says as he enters sitting down and Dan hands him a plate filled with egg and bacon "sit and eat" he says to me I nod and go pour myself a cup of coffee. "This is your plate" Dan hands over my eggs with two slices of toast "Thank you" I say still shocked at this treatment "you don't eat bacon, right?" He asks me and I nod in agreement, "Which does not make sense" Sam adds I see everyone plate is different he made it to our likings "Is this an everyday thing?" I ask, "Yeah I cook for everyone" Dan says smiling "do you like it or are they forcing you?" I ask, "I like it, plus since I don't give rent to the house Dean takes care of that for me I just buy the groceries this is another way of me helping out" He says and I nod that's actually cool of Sam and Dean, "Speaking of rent we need to discuss how much we should give" I say "No I am taking care of your cut" Sam says I look at him "No are you crazy" I say he doesn't work so it's his allowance from his parents which he should be saving living costs are going to be more now with 2 extra people "I already spoke to my parents and the guys" I stare at him "What is wrong with you I can't live here for free" I say "But you can" Dan says I stare at him giving him death glares he puts his hands up in surrender "and Marley?" I ask, "Because I can't and I won't have special treatment" I say, "It's not special treatment you need to save money" Marley says walking in "So everyone pays rent but me?" I say "I don't" Dan says "But you give something towards the house you buy groceries and you cook, I feel like you clean too because I know for a fact Sam does not" I say and they don't answer "Stop treating me like this poor person who can't do anything for herself I work at the cafe, and I tutor the twins I can afford to give something, why don't y'all give this same treatment to Dan" I say. "Okay what if you help Dan with the groceries since it's going to be more and you guys can take chances with the chores, will that make you drop this" Marley asks "Actually that is not a bad idea, at least Id know I am working to stay here and it's not for free" We all agree and continue eating "Where is Dean?" I ask, "Looking for me baby girl" I roll my eyes "Just wanted to know if you okay with what we agreed on" we tell him, and he nods in agreement we each make our way out the house I have a shift this morning at the cafe.