I'm Tired...

Chapter Seventeen

(Three year timeskip btw also last chapter (hopefully) so enjoy!!)

They had spent a good three whole years together, they were happy.. mostly.

They obviously had their couple fights, as a couple does.. and things were improving.. slightly.

The only problem was giyuu. sure- sanemi was doing way better.. but was giyuu? The answer to that was no.

He was still cutting, drinking, and he was missing more and more concerts.. it was getting sickening and bothersome.

Everybody was worried for him..

But nevertheless he always showed up to the bar, either to drink and get his bandages replaced.. because.. well.. he was a depressed adult.

What could he do? Who could he go to? He knew he had sanemi, iguro, mitsuri- and the others.. but to him it felt like he couldn't confide in anybody.. everything was off.

He hated it, he hated the feeling and being "alone" even if he was never truly alone..

Everybody was there for him.. he still kept in contact with his sister, Tsutako.. but.. they rarely talked.

Every night it felt the same.. the same as the last day.. the same as the last month.. the same as the last year.. just.. the same.

He was getting tired of it- exhausted even..

So he found himself walking around often at night.. he walked around until early morning..

Then he would just sleep.

It felt like he could sleep forever.. which he wished he could..

He remembered that night.. when he drunkenly asked sanemi to kiss him.. he loved that night- that night when everything felt okay..

But it's different now.

Everything.. it's all different!

Why couldn't it have stayed the same-?! He hated it..

He loved sanemi but sometimes he wished it would all go back to normal..

He wished he.. was normal.

Obviously he knew he was technically normal.

But then.. why.. why did he feel so broken?

Why was he like this-? Why was he.. him..

So that's how he found himself here..

It was a slightly rough day outside.

It had been raining all night and morning, fairly gloomy..

Everything was normal for everybody else.. they had all assumed giyuu had slept in..

Sanemi assumed he would be at the bar later.. so he waited.. and waited.

He tried to dial giyuus number, but nobody picked up?

It was strange..

It was to strange..

Meanwhile, giyuu was awake.. sitting on his bed with his head in his hands..

He was staring..

Staring at the rope.

The rope in which he would use..

The rope he was going to use..

The rope they find him hanging from- it was all to much..

Suddenly Daki heard her phone ringing, so she picked it up.