~Love Or Not~ Kim Namjoon

Healing

It has been very hard for me after the surgery. My mental health wasn't that good and Thiago had to go under surgery since his shoulder was shot.

I want to know if he is okay. I looked at Namjoon and he looked back at me. ''What is it baby?'' He asked being caring this whole time.

''I want to go visit Thiago.'' I said being honest. ''Okay care to tell me what's between you two?'' He asked clearly being jealous.

''Baby! There is nothing between us. He protected me the whole time I was there! You can come with me if you want.'' I said and he sighed.

''Okay fine. You can go.'' He said pouting. ''Is great Kim Namjoon jealous of his underling?!'' I asked shocked.

''He is touching you a lot and I don't like it. I haven't touched you since you came back.'' He said making me smile.

I grabbed his hand and looked into his eyes. ''Baby. You will as soon as it heals. He didn't touch me that way at all.'' I said.

''He was on top of you and between your legs.'' He said. I laughed at how cute he is when he is jealous and kissed his lips.

''He had a gun hidden under me. He pretended so he could grab the gun when the time was right. Don't be mistaken baby.'' I said.

''He run his fingers on your thigh. Did you get horny? Did you shiver?'' He asked. Wow he is seriously crazy jealous.

I smiled at him and shook my head. ''The one that makes me shiver..'' I said and put his hand on my thigh. ''Is you and only you.'' I added and he caressed  my skin making me bit my bottom lip and shiver.

I missed this so much. I missed those parted lips as his fingers touch my skin and the way both of us shiver as we enjoy the sensation of  his being inside me.

He sighed and kissed my hip, looking into my eyes. ''Fine you can go.'' He said and stood up, kissing my lips.

''I will take you there and pick you up.''  He said, making me nod. He drove me to Thiago's house and I rang the bell.

Namjoon left to head to the company for a bit and he will come back to pick me up. Thiago opened the door revealing his muscular body and covered by bandages on his chest and shoulder.

''Oh!'' He said surprised to see me. ''You should be resting.'' He said and I smiled. ''I wanted to see how you were doing.'' I said and there was something in his eyes that I couldn't explain while he looked at me.

He opened the door fully, letting me in and I walked in the house. ''Oh! It's beautiful!'' I said and he nodded.

''Hannah.'' He said making me stop in my tracks. I felt his one arm getting wrapped around me and I looked back to see Thiago hugging me.

''Just stay still for a bit.'' He said. WHY IS HE SO.. ''How is your mental health?'' He asked and I sighed turning my eyes forward. 

''Well. Not the greatest. I am sad because it would be different not being able to have a kid due to my problems but I hat how it was her doing.'' I said and he nodded.

''I get it. Everything happens for a reason. I was thinking about it a lot. Don't be sad. I believe god will give you the chance to have one if you truly want it.'' He said.

He is so boyfriend material, I swear! ''Thiago.'' I said. ''Yes?'' He asked. ''Whoever will be with you in life, will be very lucky. You are amazing, just remember that. Even if you like me or liked me since the beginning, I can't reciprocate the feelings.'' I said and he chuckled, coughing a bit due to the pain on his shoulder.

I turned around and held him still. ''Are you okay?'' I asked and he nodded smiling. ''I already know that and I can see how much you love Mr. Namjoon. I just wanted to hug you. I will miss touching you btw. No matter how much I respect Mr. Namjoon, I wanna touch you so bad. So you shouldn't visit me again okay?'' He asked.

I looked at him shocked. ''You can't be friends with me when all I want is to have you all to myself. Anyway, you should go. My shoulder will heal so don't worry. I hope your womb will heal fast and your mental health will get better.'' He said and leaned in to kiss my shoulder.

I felt my heart beating like a drum. What was that?! ''You should also stop looking at me like that because I will kiss you.''  He said and I laughed.

''Okay okay I get it, I am leaving.'' I said and made my way to the door. I don't know why but it makes me sad. This goodbye doesn't feel like it will matter for some reason.

I looked at him and smiled as I opened the door. ''Okay then I guess this is goodbye?'' I asked and he nodded. 

''Yeah. Goodbye Hannah.'' He said trying to act as cold as he could. I sighed and smiled weakly. ''Goodbye then. Thiago.'' I whispered and walked out of his house to be greeted by Namjoon's car.

I walked up to him and smiled. ''Okie dokie ready to go.'' I said and Namjoon smiled. ''Everything okay?'' He asked me and I nodded.

''Yeah we said our goodbyes and that's it.'' I said and raised his eyebrow. ''Why goodbye?'' He asked. ''He confessed to me and told me I shouldn't come check on him again so..'' I said and he nodded.

''I knew he has feelings for you. I knew since the beginning that he is in love with you. I guess when he met you again those feelings he had came back to the surface.''  He said and I nodded.

''He wants to respect you and also respect my feelings for you so he told me not to meet him again. He is very loyal to you.'' I said and smiled.

''I guess so. He always was.'' He said smiling softly. ''Let's go eat.'' he said and I nodded.