~Love Or Not~ Kim Namjoon

News

Me and Namjoon got up and exited the room, fixing each other's hair and I went to my room to change.

Namjoon went to the camera control room to delete the footage of us actually having sex in the company and I went back to work.

Neither of us thought about the cameras before this. We need to be very careful. Not that it will happen again.

I promised myself not to do it again and it pains me to say that I am debating on this. Seeing how good he feels on his face, being vulnerable in front of me and making me feel so good makes me want more but I shouldn't have this.

I am already missing his touch. I turned on the TV in my office and let it play.

"Breaking news! Today we finally got a glimpse of Kim Namjoon's actual wife! They say she is a real beauty! We got pictures of them leaving a coffee shop together! Isn't that sweet?! He is actually married! But what about the girls he has been visiting every now and then? Was he lying?! We will inform you when we know! For now I was Trisha Collins and you are watching morning news!"

I was staring at the TV shocked as hell and Namjoon entered the room.

"What is it? Why are you looking at the TV like this?" He asked and I growled so loud that he looked very confused.

"Get in your office NOW!" I yelled and pointed at the door. He looked shocked but followed my order and entered his office.

I went in after him and sat on his chair, opening his laptop. "Wait what are you doing?!" He asked shocked and I glared at him.

He didn't say anything else and I typed on his laptop to search for the scandal. He read the whole thing with me and sighed.

"You shouldn't have come." He said and rubbed his forehead. "Are you kidding me?!" I yelled at him and stood up, slamming my hand on the desk.

"Don't do that again." He said grabbing my wrist and I bit my lip trying to not lash out.

"I will do whatever I want. I came because you would have ended up married!" I yelled and he yelled back at me.

"Why do you care if I get married?!"

"I care because I know you don't want to!!"

"Did my dad tell you to say you are my wife? Is that what he wanted to do?! Make me marry you?!"

"What the hell are you saying?! Do you think I wanna marry you?! If you do you are dead wrong!" I lashed out and he came closer and closer as we yelled at each other.

"You talk like that but you cane to me this morning begging me to touch you." He said calmly and I snapped.

"Do you think...I came to you because of something like that?" I asked almost ready to cry.

"I don't know." He said and I bit my lip letting a tear roll down my face.

"Let me go." I whispered. "Hannah.." he whispered back and I frowned.

"Let me go!" I said pulling my hand away and looking away from him.

He let go of my hand and I put my hand on my face. "I shouldn't have come to you. I shouldn't have remembered my feeling for you. From now on, any moves you make towards me will be rejected. No more flirting, no more nothing." I said and left the room slamming the door shut.

Namjoon's View

Fuck! I fucked up. I shouldn't have said something like this but it's hard to believe otherwise.

The timing was too good. I know my dad likes Hannah because of how dedicated she is and how she can handle this better than me but he should have gotten her involved in the first place.

The reason he has her following me everywhere is because he trusts her blindly.

He has actually taken the role of her dad since he knows that her dad has died but still..

I lashed out on her and I shouldn't have. We got so close this morning. She opened up to me and she came to me with an open heart and I fucked up.

I stood up and exited my office and saw that she was there with her face in her hands.

I touched her shoulder and she pushed my hand away. "This time for real. Don't you ever touch me again." She said making me gulp.

"Hannah I am sorry. I lashed out. I don't believe you did it because of this." I said with a calm and sweet voice.

"I don't care. Don't touch me and don't talk to me for the rest of the day. Only for work." She said grabbing her pen and started working.

I got in my office, grabbed my stuff and left the company. She didn't follow me or anything.

I went home and saw my dad sitting on his chair. He looked at me puzzled and I sighed.

"Don't involve her in anything anymore. Stay away from her. I understand your urge to be her 'dad' but don't ever tell her to do anything again." I said and he sighed.

"You know I always pushed you to get married. Now you can marry Hannah because of the scandal. They will find out who she is." He said making me snap.

"No they fucking won't because I will take everything down." I said and went to my room.

I called one of my friends and told him to erase anything that has to do with the matter and in half an hour everything was gone.

He wrote an article that said that it was fake news. I sighed and rubbed my head. This is giving me a headache.

Ugh I fixed this one but how am I gonna fix the situation between me and Hannah.

I remembered how she was moaning my name and how vulnerable she was as she felt me and I felt myself getting hard.

Fuck I want her so bad. Will I be able to feel her again?