~Love Or Not~ Kim Namjoon

Apology

I woke up the next day and went to buy some flowers and a chocolate. I run to the company and opened the door to see her sleeping here again.

I put the flowers and chocolate on her desk and left again. I am gonna be away for a few days to let things calm down.

I talked to my bodyguards and decided to leave two of them behind so they can keep an eye on her.

I grab some clothes from my house and headed to the countryside. My mom has a house there and I will be all alone which means that my head will clear up.

I texted her to inform her that I will be gone for a week so she doesn't have to be stressed around me.

I don't know how she rubbed off on me but I feel that if I don't have her, I will be in a lot of trouble.

Not only physically but emotionally too.

Hannah's View

I woke up and reached out to see what time it is. I saw a message from Namjoon and groaned.

I didn't open it though. I stood up and got dressed fixing my make up. I look like shit.

I sighed and went outside to see flowers and a chocolate placed on my desk. Does he think he will make me get closer by doing that again?!

I angrily opened the door to his office but no one was there. I felt like something had gone completely wrong.

I run to my phone and saw his message.

N: Hannah..I hope you slept good. I am gonna be gone for a week. I don't want you to be stressed around me. I am sorry about what I said the other day. I hope you have a good day. You can have a day off tomorrow so you can stay at home and relax.

I read the text and I swear I felt like my chest got stabbed by a million knives.

I felt my eyes burning and took a deep breath. Maybe this is for the best. I sighed and looked at the chocolate.

Oh! That was my favourite...chocolate. How can he remember what kind of chocolate I eat?!

I thought he wasn't paying attention to me. I looked at his door and opened it looking inside.

This silence bothers me very much. I did my job as I usually do and when it was about afternoon, I looked at my phone.

He hasn't texted anything else. Why do I feel like I am gonna suffocate? I should be glad he is not here.

I told him not to touch me or talk to me only if it's work related but I feel bothered by it.

Do I even know what I want?! I groaned and entered his office again. I run my fingers on his desk remembering that night and groaned.

"Why do I even keep thinking about this?! It was just..sex." I said after a long pause. "Being away from him is way worse than him being here and me wanting to punch him." I said to myself and sat on his chair.

I took a deep breath trying to stay calm and looked around. It too silent! I stood up and sat on his couch, scrolling on my phone and trying not to think about anything.

Time passed but I didn't seem to get comfortable with the silence that was in the room.

I scoffed and stood up grabbing my stuff and driving to my house. Maybe I will relax as soon as I go home.

I hit the shower and sat on my couch. I tried zapping and watching videos on Youtube but nothing could take my mind off him.

Ugh!!!! Stop stupid mind!! I stayed awake until it was about midnight and fell asleep due to exhaustion.

Next day

I woke up when my alarm went off and when I saw myself in the mirror I screamed.

THOSE BAGS UNDER MY EYES!!!! THIS IS HORRIBLE!! I went to work with glasses making everyone look at me.

I did my job like always and sighed when I was done. I need to find things to do. Like seriously!

I turned on the TV and saw Namjoon's face on it. "The young CEO of the company was spotted on the countryside with a female actress today. After the scandal with the woman in white on the coffee shop another scandal is coming?! What is this?! Are they friends? Did he deny the rumors because of her?"

Who the fuck is that?! I grabbed my phone and started typing but I deleted it and put it down.

"I am not his wife or even his girlfriend so...I can't ask him if she is his girlfriend or why he is with her. Why the fuck do I even care?!" I asked myself and noticed that I am getting angry.

Okay. I need to calm down. I went to get something to eat since I didn't eat yesterday.

This situation is so stressful. I made myself eat because I wanted to throw up right away after eating the first bite and went straight home.

As I was walking I felt someone following me. I turned around and looked to see both of Namjoon's bodyguards following me.

He told them to keep an eye on me whole he is gone, didn't he? I walked up to them and sighed.

"Where is Mr.Kim?" I asked and one of them talked. "We are sorry but Mr.Kim told us not to tell you." He said.

"Why?" I asked and they looked at each other. "If he thinks that it's better for me he is wrong. Tell him that." I said and turned around leaving them behind.

I got in the house changing into my pajamas and sat on the couch watching netflix.

I waited for a measage just in case but I ended up fslling asleep on the couch.