-Its 8PM and me and Kethan just had a big argument. 2 times already within a hour. I am so annoyed with him. But i love him so much.-
-ANOTHER HIT!-
Kethan: "you fucking better keep quiet next time understand?!"
-i gasp in terror as i shake on the spot from his sudden attack!-
-as i keep quiet not able to speak from fear he attacks me again. This time nearly punching me in the face.-
-my sudden reflex would lead me to flinching my eyes shut and move away before he punches me.-
Kethan: "...you fucking bitch...!!!"
-i cry in my arms and i keep looking away from him-
SERENITY: "Yes, Yes! I agree, i agree just please stop!"
-he'd spit at me and head out of the bedroom.. he would usually head to the kitchen and make himself a better tea..-
I sit in the bedroom.. crying to myself with bruises all over me.. and his disgusting spit. Filled with alcohol.. -
-but then he shouts my name out-
Kethan: "SERENITY!, MAKE DINNER ALREADY!"
-i try remain calm and stand up but as the bruises hurt so much i struggle to get up... he continues to shout me name out comanding me to constantly cook dinner.. i begin to panic, i cannot get up! I cant!.-
-i hear his footsteps come back into the room while i keep trying to get up.-
-he stands at the door watching be trying to get up-
Kethan: "are you fucking serious!, you fat fucking bitch cant even get up? Go lose some pounds you whale."
-and he leaves... without helping.-
The next few weeks...
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Im at school, with Kethan.. his arms around around me keeping me close to him.. i like this part of him.. only this part. With us we have Zyran and Sehar. My favourite people although i only know one!
Sehar: "i heard you both are planning to head to California!"
-my facial expression changes slightly to the false information..-
-but i must keep quiet.-
Kethan: "yeah we are!, but thats only me whos going, im just going to see family.. friends......"
-i look up at him and his eyes are no where near to me.-
Zyran: "oh youre leaving your girl behind?"
-finally someone's said it for me!-
Kethan: "oh she already agreed to this, right Seni?"
-i pull up a fake smile and nod-
Serenity: "oh yeah i already know about this!"
Sehar: "omg... wait we could have a crazy girls night out with just you and me, that would be so much fun!"
-id take a second to think about it knowing im not allowed to... however as he's suddenly leaving i maybe could!-
Serenity: "That would be lovely sehar!"
Zyran: "anyways when are you going kethan?"
Kethan: "oh soon."
-....what is he on about, what does that mean...whens soon???-
Sehar: "so.. no specific day youre going?"
Kethan: "nah."
-what a jerk.-
Serenity: "i need to use the bathroom.. he haven't got long till lesson begins again..!"
-maybe this'll get me out his arms.-
Seher: "wait let me come with you!"
-we both get up and rush into the bathrooms.. but suddenly i have a urge to throw up..-
-i rush right into one of the stalls forgetting to close the door and throw up.-
-as a big phobia of puking is apart of me. I begin to panic to myself and place the lid down and immediately flush.-
Seher: "wait Seren... are you okay?!"
Serenity: "its all okay... dont worry."
Seher: "serenity..."
-i look at her slowly-
Seher: "it better not be what i think it is..."
-did she see a bruise... does she know..? Wait!-
Seher: "are you pregnant...?"
-oh pheww...-
Serenity: "no.. why!?..-"
Seher: "i mean you threw up out of no where..!"
Serenity: "no no.. i just,.. im super sick and have been throwing up regularly in the past week.-
Seher: "oh, well i hope you get better, anyways are you all okay now?"
Serenity: "yeah.. im okay we should head back slowly."
Seher: "slowly?"
Serenity: "yeah... slowly!"
-as we both start heading back i really thought that going slowly would have helped me with not seeing Kethan's face. But he was outside the door with Zyran, fuck!!-
-i wish i could have just fucking exposed his ass!-
Zyran: here are the ladies which take their time in the bathroom!
Kethan: try hurrying up next time.
Serenity: "i was busy throwing up.. let me throw up okay."
-oh shit.. I've fucked up again.-
-seeing his face... didn't surprise me anymore but that one harsh attacking grin on his face always gives me the hint that ill be attacked, hurt and bruised.. I don't like it at all-
-but looking at Seher and Zyran.. they seemed to be laughing about it completely not acknowledging the fact that i will be punished for speaking, but they don't even know about it.-
-and to get away with seeing his face, i fake a gag and rush back into the toilets and slam the door at seher's face.. the guilt i have from doing that to her is unforgivable. But i know i must-
-i rush into a cubical and lock myself and burst into tears, only because i dont want to get hurt again..-
-my hands shake like crazy leading me into a panic attack.-
Serenity: " why does this have to happen to me..."
-end of episode 1-
