"spoiled?"

chapter 11

(as time passed both, namjoon and kook slept soundly in each other's arms. Jungkook stirred in his sleep when he heard his phone ringing, he rubbed his eyes and without noticing namjoon he immediately picked up the phone. His eyes darkened looking at the caller I'd.

It was his mom's call. Chuckling bitterly he cut the call without hesitation and turned around to sleep again- that's when he noticed another figure lying next to him.

His eyes widened, heart raced seeing his brother, namjoon sleeping in his bed, his one arm gently wrapped around jungkook's waist. How did he come here? He remembered namjoon came to pick him up and he was slowly dozing off in the car then-

Jungkook's eyes widened as he connected the dots. that means he fell asleep in the car and then namjoon brought him here? And he had been sleeping with him all the time? He felt his cheeks burning. His cheeks dusted with pink as he stared at namjoon's face with his heart beating fast and mind racing with numerous thoughts.

He didn't hate it. He was supposed to hate and get mad at namjoon for not waking him up and lying with him without his permission but instead he felt something else.

He felt his heart happy. He felt safe with him. Even tho his mind kept reminding him about his sufferings and screamed to him to wake namjoon up and get mad at him but He wanted to hug him again and feel his warmth even if it was for a few minutes. He wanted to hide himself in his brother's arms for a few minutes, to feel okay...to fill the emptiness inside him for at least a few seconds.

But his mind....

it was not letting him move closer to him, not letting him hug him. It kept reminding him about his sufferings, and kept reminding him that he needed to hurt them. His innocent doe eyes brimmed with tears debating on whether to hug him or leave to the washroom? Should he hug him? Just a simple hug for a few minutes, Namjoon wouldn't come to know about it, he's asleep afterall, right?

After a long battle between his heart and mind, he finally, for the first time in these past years, Jungkook let his heart win.

He sniffled and leaned forward, his hands trembling, eyes brimmed with warm tears as he placed a soft kiss on namjoon's cheek. A tear rolled down his own cheek falling on his older brother's cheek. He immediately wiped namjoon's cheek , his touch soft and gentle.

He wiped his own tears and laid down, resting his head on namjoon's arm. He wrapped his one arm around namjoon and snuggled his face into namjoon's chest. Namjoon who was asleep, pulled Jungkook closer to himself, wrapping his arm protectively around his little brother.

Jungkook's heart swelled with emotions upon feeling the familiar warmth of his brother's embrace. He missed it, missed being around his brothers, missed this feeling.

He couldn't hold his tears back. Snuggling into namjoon's chest, he burst into tears. He let his emotions pour out, not wanting to wake his older brother, he just cried in silence. His sobs were almost inaudible as he leaned further closer to his brother wanting to melt in his brother's embrace.

He didn't want to let him go. He wanted to be in that position for awhile. He knows he was doing wrong, so wrong. He was supposed to hate them. He has been hating them all these years, right? Then why suddenly when he has the chance to hurt them, his heart doesn't allow him. Why doesn't his heart allow him to be mad at them?

He didn't want to think any of these at this moment. He wanted to forget all the sufferings, he wanted to forget that he hates them just for a while. The only thing he wants right now is to feel his brother's warmth and feel okay. And god, just how much he missed it. It makes him cry realizing how much he longed for these simple hugs of his brothers.