why you didn't tell me before?

Secret feeling

"Feelings are strange🤔, however we try to control but can't..... And I don't know how my feelings became my bondage... though it's all my fault,... But first love is pure and a different emotion.... So on that time I wanted to go with a flow... Yes, I am scared... But I was grateful, because I have been enjoying that journey... "

For me, "Journey does matter, but destination doesn't matter".

Hi! Everyone, I am back with my twisted love story... Actually guy's I want to tell something about my hidden feelings... On that timeI was sure that" I am strong enough to hide my emotions from my group"... But destiny had planned something different for me.

My first love.... He is very special for me, since childhood we have been sharing a good bond, but later virat has captured a special place in my heart❤..... Yes, guy's.. Virat is my first love... Not only I love him, but also I can't explain my depth of love... I was well aware about virat's popularity... He is the most handsome, intelligent boy in our college, and I know I don't deserve him... But I have fallen in love... So my feelings were not in my hand...

One day when I was in canteen... Suddenly Ritu came and she had whispered... , "so when will you propose ?.. "

Me: what? ( with a surprise and shocking tone)... Which proposal?..
Ritu: Don't be surprised.. darling... (Smiling😊😊😊)

Me: I have no one in my life...
Ritu: oh! Really,...then what about virat?...
Me:... He is my childhood friend, just friendship... Nothing like you think.

Ritu: ok, then if virat is available... I should try... right?.. Because you are just a friend..

Me: obviously, because virat is not my type... And you are also not a perfect type for virat...

Ritu:... Hm, jealousy, I understand your feelings...

Then virat and others had entered in our canteen, and virat asked, "who is not perfect for whom? "... I became nervous, so I hurriedly changed the topics, because I never wanted to loose my friendship. So It's better to hide my feeling. We became busy for discussing Ali's upcoming surprise birthday party... Next day we all reached Ali's house at Maniktala in Kolkata.. Parveena aunty had made briyani for all of us. We were enjoying very much...

But Do you know guys What I was doing?. I was busy for staring virat... I didn't know, how did he become such an important person for me?... Ali's birthday was full of surprise elements.. Why?, because we got to know about Ritu and Rohan. Yes! They were dating secretly, they are a very beautiful couple. I was very happy for them.

Then suddenly Teju proposed virat, I was shocked😱, how dare she? I became frustrated... Then virat smiled, and hugged Teju... "What! That means virat also like Teju... Am I a duffer? " I was thinking in my mind. Then virat told, " You are very nice and beautiful girl, but you are not for me... I always think you are my good friend. So I don't want to destroy our beautiful bond... "

Teju: If I have any problem tell me? , I will correct myself.
Virat:Don't... If I say, that you have to changed yourself for me, then this is not love... This is a compromise... Don't do this for anyone... And don't worry you deserve someone better than me... Ok..

Like seriously!, these words were so heart touching, I wish, ... No, no,.. I have to control myself, otherwise I can't be able to handle anything wrong... Then suddenly virat came in front of me and told, " Maya is the perfect for me... Do you know guys why? Because I can share anything.. And she is my mirror, I don't need to be perfect in front of her... That's why she is my darling, my best friend... "

I was literally blushing😊😊😊..
Me: Do you really mean it virat?...
Virat: yes, of course. Hey! Maya, if I can't find out any one suitable for me, then I will marry you...

Me: what? I am the last choice... So is this my place for you? Wow!, thank you virat for this honor... Yes I am always the last choice for every one.

I felt devastated, so I left the place.... Only Ritu was worrying... She was calling me constantly...

"Kabhi kabhi darti hoo,
Khudki chahat se.... Ye chahat na, meri zindagi ke katil na ban jay... "

To be continued with the next chapter (unforgettable incident).