My life took a 369 degree turn my own parents played with my feelings and my life - NOOR E ALAM URF NOOR.
I can't marry anyone she or no one she is my desire my life my love my breath- DAYYAN ADEEL SHEIKH.
WHY WHY WHY....this religion have to come b...
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
Relax guys rone se kya hoga kya mere rone se Abbu apni kasam wapas le lenge
kasam...
kasam....
hmm...kya ye sb kuch khtm kr denge wo jo abhi niche hua wo sb....nhi....no never.....nothing gonna change even if i cry my heart out ...... Abbu ne apni Kasam thi so I have to marry that man.
Or tum ye baat muskura kr bta rhi hu....kajal complained.
( And you are saying this with smile)
Uff ho leave it guy's hasna rona it is life isn't it life is all about up and down or.....dekho na kitni filmy life a you forced arrange marriage hm jaisi book girlies ki one of favourite trope.....
( Look how filmy my life is forced arrange marriage one of favourite trope of book girlies like us)
Noor it's not a book it's your life dammit.... preet seems angry now but forget it. Bilkul Noor life is not fictional it's non fictional even your trope is fictional what if your life will become hell....think about it kajal is concerned about me.
You know what guy's I don't have to think abbu se bdh kr kuch nhi.....abbu ne kasam di h or agr abbu mujhe pyaar zeher bhi de de na to mai Bismillah krke kha lo.....
( There's nothing more imp than my abbu he swore his life and even if he give me poison with love i will take with Bismillah)
By the way why are you guy's still here go home other's wise you gonna face aunty's wrath it's almost 5 both of you have coaching go go today is my leave day hmm....
No we will stay here....yes we will not go...
Haha you will....both of you get out from my room I'm so tired i need rest kaise zalim dost ho...
(How cruel friends you guy's are)
But Noor...
No but and all trust me I'm okay and i need rest because it was tiring it was my first time you know na....
Okay we are going we'll come tomorrow..... EARLY MORNING KL SUNDAY H....these two almost broke my ear.
It's been two hour's since I'm here it's almost seven but still quite bright as it's summer.......this place is my hiding place it's an abonded broken haweli people say's in this haweli there's jin and chudail so nobody comes here but i do since childhood whenever I have to cry..... it's have a big varanda (gallery) where i dance and let out my frustrations whenever I need.
Now look at the sky...sun is getting ready to hide ...... Wo dheere dheere baadlon me chupne ki koshish kr rha aisa lg rha jaise mujhse dur bhaag rha h baaki sb ki tarah
( The sun is hiding slowly slowly it's seems like he is running away from me like everyone else)
Time passes and I don't know when tear's stared flowing from my eye's and now even I can't control i did infront of my friends and parents..... I can't feel anything or I'm feeling heavy weight on my chest it's becoming unbearable I'm feeling restless ness bhut bechaini ho rhi h I...i...i want to go home but where is my home ..... ..... mujhe.. mujhe rona h chikna h...mujhe apni ammi abbu se sawal krna...p..p..pr mai kuch nhi kr paa rhi h mai kya kru Allah mere maula mai kya kru mujhe bataye mai kya kru....and with that my sobs becomes a loud cry.
( I.. I want to cry i want to shout i want to ask my parents a lot bu..but I'm unable to do anything what should I do my Allah...my Allah please lead me ....and with that my sob becomes a loud cry)
Now only one thing can put me ease dance...i dance when i feel low i dance when i feel overwhelmed....
And then i cry infront of my raab on prayer mat that's my favourite place.
And without my realisation my Feet began to dance i danced with such emotion that the dried branches of the tree on the floor began to prick my feet i feel some wetness under my feet but i didn't realised anything until my blood become over .....the pain was giving me relaxation.
And the very next moment I fell on a ground with thud.... now i feel a little better it's feel my eye's are light now..... it's almost eight outside is getting darker i should be home otherwise ammi abbu will get worried i fixed my self i was a mess and about to go when i saw i man he was standing far leaning on a black car and staring at me without blinking i was so engaged in dance that I didn't notice what if he was there all this time i feel weird the world is dangerous and i tried to walk away or run away but as I pass by him he immediately lower his gaze and stepped back giving me way i feel he was insuring me that I'm safe and now I notice he is a young man in his late 20's he will not be more than 26 he is quite good looking he seems rich he is in all three piece black suit.
After 5 minutes i reach home where i found my family waiting for me on dining table maybe it's time to get scolded.
Are you okay...for my surprise aapi asked me and finally she is home i want to ask her so many thing's.
Hmm.... sorry wo i didn't realise when it's get that late i...i...
It's okay baitho kuch baat krni h.... ( It's okay sit I have to talk something)
Ji..ji..abbu i sat on chair when ammi spoke.....after 2 week's it's...it's your wedding and for my astonishment i didn't get surprised or shock because the way they are sacrificing me for something it's not big deal that the wedding is in two weeks even they would tell me that it's tomorrow I'll not be shocked.
Hmmm....
What hmm kuch khna to kh do
( What hmm if want to say something say it)
Abbu said looking at my reaction but what can I say... Nhi kuch nhi aapne kha shaadi kr lo kr rhi hu aapne kha 2 hafte baad to to thik h mna krne ka option h kya mere pass...hmm...
( No.. nothing you said get marry I agreed you said get marry in 2 week's i agreed do i have option to say no)
Thik h bs btana tha jao so jao der ho gyi h.....
Ji.....he didn't even ask me for dinner Maine aisa kya kr diya jo sb logo ne mujhse muh mod liya meri galti kya h why they are behaving like that.
( He didn't even ask me for dinner what did I do that everyone back faces me what did i do wrong why they are behaving like that)
It's 2:30 am and sleep is nowhere to see i tried so hard but I can't sleep I'm just lying on my bed.
Kl dophar ek bje tk meri zindagi bilkul thik thi or fir jaise palak jhapkte hi meri duniya hi palat gyi..... Kaash mai kabhi college se ghr hi na aati kaash kl kaa din calender se skip ho jaata kaash.....pr ab is kaash ka koi fayada nhi meri zindagi ne mukh mod liya h....
( yesterday at Till 1pm my life was good and then i blinked and my world turn upside down I wish I never came home from college, I wish tomorrow's day could be skipped from the calendar... but now this wish is of no use, my life has turned its side...)
The boy I'm getting married i didn't even know him known is too much i didn't even know how he look's what's his age what did he do he is he student like me or my senior what... what i..if..he is an old man....why didn't he come with his family why did my parents didn't show me his pic yet.....but what even he is 60 year old man or 21 year old boy i have to get married i have to.....
And I didn't realised when i fell asleep while crying.... it's 1:30 how could I sleep that much i skipped my fajr prayer too..... I woke up took a shower and immediately performed my zuhr prayer namaz (prayer) gives peace to mind and heart and that's what I needed the most right now.
After i finish i heard two familiar voice downstairs... Good morning ooo afternoon miss Noor.... Tum dono yah we told you that we will come early morning preet said with a sad pout.
Don't tell me you guy's....
Jii hn...subah 8:30 se yaha pe....
I'm really sorry kajal..preet....
Acha beta Noor uth gyi khana yhi khaogi ya kamre me de du saath me kha lena
( Okay Noor you woke up do you want your lunch here or in your room eat with your friends)
