Stolen From Me ll

Pretty hurts

Beyoncé: 2:22.P.M October 5th

Standing up from my bed after a 2 hour nap. As soon as I stood up I sat right back down feeling dizzy and nauseous I haven't ate in three days and I feel terrible. I feel like I have to vomit but I don't have any food to throw up so I know that's not gonna happened. I finally got the strength and I stood up slowly walking to my bathroom as I wobbled due to dizziness. I only have so much strength left because I been drinking water but other than that nothing else has been in my stomach.

I turned on my shower and began to undress. I gazed my body in the mirror turning from side to side and looking at the little bit of weight I lost my arms were still flappy and I still had a little bump in my stomach, my thighs were still touching and my caves look extra fat which I didn't like. I sighed and saw that the heat was fogging the mirror making me disappear in it. I stepped in the shower and let the heat run over my dizzy muscles. I felt dizzy standing and I was shaking. I stepped out the shower and turned on the bath water. I put on my silk robe and went to the linen closet grabbing some bubble bath and Epson salt.

Going back into my bathroom i poured a slight amount of the epson salt in the water and a half of the bubble bath. This was more than just a bath I needed to relax my muscles from shaking. I went under the sink counter and grabbed my sugar cookie candle the mini got me. I lit the candle and placed it on the side of the tub. I turned the light off and turned on the mini yellow light so it wasn't too light but it was dark.

I dropped my robe and stepped in the water and sink my body all the way down laying my head on the back of the tub closing my eyes letting out a breath.

"MOM!!" I heard my name being called I opened my eyes and looked at the door.

"In the batheroom" I yelled back. The door opened and there stood mini and blue closely behind her. For some reason blue has been all up under her. She been sleeping with her and following her every where.

"Hey mom we wanted to have a movie day since it's Friday I was gonna head to the store to get some snacks to you want anything?" I bit my lip and tucked my lips at my answer.

"Yeah can you get me that apple cider vinegar water please" I cleared my throat. She scrunched her face.

"Mom that stuff makes you lose a lot of weight" i nodded my head

"I know but I had it for a few rehearsals and It was so good" I lied. She laughed and nodded.

"Okay we'll be back" she said about to leave before she quickly turned around. "Ok, daddy and uncle Benny just left" she informed me.

"Did they say where they were going?" She shook her head

"No just said to tell you they'll be back" I nodded laying my head back down as I began to feel bad.

"Okay thank you" I peaked one eye open to look at her .

"Okay we'll be back love you mommy" she spoke. I smiled

"I love y'all too drive safe please" she nodded and closed the door back.  I sigh and continue to relax.

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"Beyoncé baby, are you alright?" I looked up at mama and Kelly and Solange conversation died down and they all looked at me.

"I'm fine why?" I spoke biting the corner of my lip breaking eye contact with her.

"I don't know you seem- out of it" she shrugged

"And are you losing weight?" Kelly asked scrunching her face. I shook my head immediately but on the inside I was happy. So maybe not eating is wearing off.