Recovery Is Really Hard ( Chapter Fifteen)

Happy 15 th birthday Chloe

Saturday December 14 th 2024

—- Chloe just wanted to have a fun shopping day with her family in all the Italian little shops and restaurants... and to go to a Ceramic Cafe. I mean she's really grateful for the opportunity to be in Italy , and he knows that it's part of her birthday gift... which is incredible to be able to say that she went to a Taylor Swift concert on her golden birthday ( fourteenth) and on her fifteenth birthday she went to Italy !  Not many people her age can actually say that...

2h29 am

**Carina is breastfeeding Niccolas and Maya , is doing the same thing with Charlotte... they are both sitting in their bed with the pillows up against their backs**

Carina: how is our first baby girl already fifteen years old? I feel like we don't see the time go by... and we're really rushing into day to day life and it's just sad , to think about, like some times I actually bed God or whoever is " controlling the time" to make it go slower... and just enjoy the little moments... I don't think I'm ever going to be prepared for the day Enzo and now Chloe won't even want to come on family vacation with us anymore because " they're too old" !

Babe ! I'm not going to be ready for this day to come...

Maya : yea I know what you mean... but we'll still have the five youngest children.. and Violet , Scarlett and the rest of the kids are still wanting to do fun things and be on family vacation with us , I mean Skylar is almost 29 years old and she still wants to be with us ! Babe , you can't dwell on something that hasn't happened yet, you're going to destroy yourself and it's not a good idea or time to do that...

Okay ? the kids need you... and most importantly I NEED YOU.. here and now Bambina !

Carina: yea I guess you're right, I'm sorry.. I'm feeling really emotional.. every birthday is special and I guess in the back of my mind I do kind of go back to when they were born... which is weird because when they asked me that question years ago " Do You ever remember.... Oh by 14h38 I was doing this , in that specific position and she was slowly getting down and ready to meet us"

My answer had always been NO ! But somehow now I'm going back to that day ... and that's why I'm being extremely emotional and wanting the time to go by slowly.. because I know Enzo and Chloe are the first ones to move out of our household and... I'm NOT PREPARED FOR THAT DAY TO COME!

Maya : Babe she's only fifteen... she's not moving out anytime soon... and I know it's sad and all but she's no where near ready to move out... and neither is he! We better go to sleep now my love!

Carina: yea , I know you're right, I do love her idea of going to a ceramic cafe with us all !
Hrmm good night my Bambina !
Sweet dreams to you babe ! I love you so much, to the moon and back, forever and always.

Maya : yea , she's got that artsy vibe from you my darling.. and she got a sporty competitive vibe from me... all of our kids who are very competitive got it from me...

Carina;  yea , we did a pretty phenomenal job raising our children right...

It's time to go back to sleep I love you so much too , to the moon and back, forever and always..

** they bough very carefully put Niccolas and Charlotte in their pack and play which are in the side of their bed... and go immediately to sleep . Maya booked a table for her family at 10 h 30 in the ceramic Cafe ! The little  kids were very excited to see what it was. **