As the Sun Sets / Akitoya

May 31st, 2024

   Toya has been living with me for about a week now. Not much has changed between us. Actually-scratch that-everything has changed!

   He's been acting weird as fuck, he doesn't cuddle with me when we sleep anymore, and most importantly I haven't seen him naked once and he's seen me naked like 20 thousand times! Actually, that's not very important, but it feels very one-sided to me. It's not like I want to see him naked anyways.

   We've just been going about our daily lives as if we're not sharing a fucking room together and living under the same roof? Sometimes I feel like I don't exist to him.

   It's not even that big of a deal, it's just a bit awkward I feel like. I wonder if he feels the same way. He probably doesn't.

   On another note, his birthday was fucking awesome. He hugged me, and now he's an adult, which means I can tag along with him and he can help me do adult-like things. I know I'm only maybe half a year younger, but still. I feel privileged.

   I sighed, leaning back in my desk chair as I stared at the notebook. I tucked it away into the drawer of the desk and stretched my arms above my head with a yawn. I wrote something in my journal just to avoid my homework. God, why am I doing extra classes? I guess Toya is, too, maybe that's why... I think he needed to do it because he forgot to get a credit, and I... failed algebra. Right. Stupid. An and Kohane are already graduated and are just waiting until An is an adult to move in together and be all stupid and lovey dovey together and live a perfect life and-!

   "Akito."

   Heh.

   I swiveled in the chair to face Toya, who had just come out of the shower, only in his boxers. I couldn't care less(I could).

   "Why aren't you working on your homework?"

   Shit. He's always so stern, even if it's just extra classes, he's still on my ass about getting my work done. I sighed dramatically, leaning back, "Do I have to?"

   "Do you want to fail again?"

   That shut me up pretty quick, so I turned around and got the work out, starting it.

   I listened to him go back into the closet to get his clothes, then him getting dressed. It felt very domestic-living together like this-in a way. It felt like we were a married couple. I heard him sit down on the small couch I had in my room, probably on his phone. I think I love him, but in a friend way, you know?

   Okay, time to lock in on this stupid ass homework.

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   Maybe an hour and a half later, Toya had dragged me to go do a tour of a university he was looking at. I don't really care about name of it. We were ass deep into the campus before he sat down on a bench. I huffed and sat beside him to catch my breath.

   He just gazed around at the surroundings dreamily for some reason. I have a feeling he was actually excited about doing even more schooling.

   "What do you think of this one?"

   I realized he was now looking at me and I blinked, racking my brain for an answer, going over everything I'd saw so far, "Uhm.. it's really beautiful, honestly. I think you'd like it here."

   He hummed softly, tilting his head and gazing at me for a moment more before shifting his attention back to the environment, "Yeah, I think so too. I'll look into it more."

   We stayed silent for a moment, just thinking and admiring the campus.

   "Toya, are you doing okay?"