As the Sun Sets / Akitoya

June 14th, 2024

   I've been trying to get my life together ever since I had to burden Akito and his family with my presence. I applied to colleges, jobs, and I just finished getting all the paperwork and shit sorted out so I can live on my own when I'm able to move out of Akito's place. It's been a lot, and I'm sure Akito isn't happy about me being distant... but we literally live together, come on.

   This past week, not much has happened besides me going in for training at my job. I haven't told Akito about all of this yet, but I'm sure he wouldn't care if I did.

   I yawned, opening the door to his room. I had just finished up a trip to the bank again... Being an adult was confusing.

   Accidentally almost stumbling down the stairs as Akito pounced on me, I yelped, trying to regain my balance. I let out a sigh of relief when I found my footing, wrapping my arms around him and giving him a small pat on the back, "Hey..."

   His stupid, smug little face peeked up at me from where his face was buried in my chest. He looked absolutely overjoyed at something so simple like a hug.

   I chuckled softly, moving his hair out his face, "What's wrong?"

   "Nothing! I'm just glad you're finally home!" He chirped out in a sing-song voice. He was definitely way too happy...

   "Why're you acting like this, though..?" I mumbled slowly, gently trying to get him to loosen his strong grip around me.

   "You've barely been home for no reason, and you've been avoiding me," Aki stated bluntly, still clinging to me.

   I sighed. I knew he'd be bent out of shape over this. "Can you let me go now?"

   He scowled, letting go of me and stepping away. I took the chance to step past him and finally entering the familiar room. It was nice to breathe for once. In all honesty, it's not just that I've been avoiding him because of my new job, I just don't want to do anything with him.

   I know it's really wrong to start something up by kissing him a few times and all... but I just can't right now. I huffed, sliding my jacket off and throwing it in the laundry hamper that was against the wall between the bathroom and closet.

   When I looked over my shoulder, I saw Akito staring up at me, looking like a kicked puppy. I couldn't help but smile. He was absolutely adorable, even if he was extremely pathetic looking. It just made me want to coddle him and make sure he was okay.

   As soon as I sat down, he leaped on top of me, embracing me once again. My breath immediately left my lungs from the force of the impact. Despite being taller, he was heavier because of his muscles... so yeah, it hurt.

   It didn't seem like he cared much, though, because he just snuggled right up to me and made a small noise of contentment. God, he was cute. But for some reason, this just didn't feel the same as usual...

   So, I tried prying him off. Looking back on it, I should've just let him cuddle me, he needed it...

   He whined, looking up at me again, "What's wrong..?"

   I couldn't think of an answered. His olive green eyes stared back at me hopefully, yet he looked so concerned... or maybe disappointed...

   "Toya..?"

   "Get up, please," The soft words left my mouth before I could even think.

   He got off, sitting beside me instead. God, he looked so pathetic... 

   "Are you mad at me?"

   My eyes widened, my breath catching in my throat. That was the last thing I expected him to say, even if I gave him the perfect setup to think that. I quickly rushed to comfort him, raising my hands in front of me defensively, "No! No, never, Aki... I swear, I-"

   He cut me off quickly, "Are you sure? You've been avoiding me..."

   "No, I'm not mad," I sighed, "I just don't want to right now... okay?"

   He huffed, a look of determination and concern on his face, "Why not? Talk to me."

   I froze up. I actually have no idea... It's... I let out another sigh, "I don't know..." He tilted his head inquisitively, which prompted me to continue, "It just doesn't feel right for some reason... I don't want to be close to you right now- wait, agh... I think I'm broken, Aki," I trailed off, saying the last part softly.

   He just stared at me, a frown on his face. I could just tell he was battling internally. It made me feel guilty for even thinking all of this... I thought he'd have an answer or a solution to fix all of this, but he seemed stumped.

   Akito finally spoke up softly, "Can I at least lean on you?"

   Guess we're dropping this, like usual. I just nodded, and he leaned his head onto my shoulder. The weight of him on me was comforting in an odd way, but it still tingled in a peculiar way... Even if it was comforting, I don't feel the same way I usually do when he does this. Maybe this marks the end of this era of our friendship, where we casually just cuddle and kiss... But, I thought I was falling in love with him for real?

   Just how fast can you fall out of love, exactly?

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917 words

I feel like the chapters are getting shorter and shorter, but i dont wanna fill it with a buncha useless stuff and make it too long and hard to read ..

Anyways, a lot of people are noticing this! If you're still reading to this point, thank you a lot! more people are also commenting and voting, and it's really encouraging! Whenever i read, i never vote or comment, but seeing how nice it is as a writer myself i think its worth doing in the future lol 
(srry for the big long ramble! ^-^")

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