The Tale Of Something Else.

Chapter 5

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I sat down and placed the book on the table. I am determined to study now, nobody can stop me from doing my exams well. But somewhere there is a lingering feeling that I won't be able to stay long without my mind itself trailing towards him. I opened the book and tried to put my full focus on it, but you know there is some kind of desperation, pain knowing that I won't be able to see him for quite sometime. I must not be overwhelmed by it so easily. I am doing this for my own good..or rather can say for Otosan. He does so much for me, I can't think about letting him down even if it hurts my feeling.

For about 2 hours maybe? I closed the books scattered on the table one by one. I am so tired of continuously sitting here and studying, my eyes hurts too. I pulled the drawer and took out Fuji's picture, I wanted to look at him, to tell my heart that it is alright. I felt immensely concerned when I looked at him. I want to know - How is he doing right now. Is he still sick. Did he take the medicine. Did he rest.

I want to know so badly. I sighed and reached for my phone which was in charger. I texted Rina telling if she can speak to Hikaru and ask him about Fuji's health. I placed the phone down and picked up the picture of the boy I love. Just then Otosan called me downstairs for the dinner, I placed the photo back in the drawer and pushed it in. I went down and saw my mother setting down the food on the table, it smells good. She made my favourite Shrimp. I sat down on the chair and immediately started eating. I felt awkward that I shared such thing to otosan, but also sight relief as atleast somebody from my family knows about it and that makes me feel happy and contended.

My mother sat down beside my step-father and started eating as well. We didn't talk much, just a comfortable silence and nothing more. But to be honest, I like this, I don't like to talk while eating, I hate it like I hate my wet hair. It makes my whole body to cringe up and shiver. After the dinner, otosan washed the dishes and to my surprise, okaasan didn't complain today. She was in her own world. I felt relieved but also some kind of disappointment, maybe I am used to listening to my mother's complain and mocks. I went upstairs towards my room and closed the door. I made my bed and sat on it now pulling my phone out of the charger.

I opened it and saw three new messages from Rina which was 15 minutes ago. Not long.

-How can you entrust me with such thing Su?
                                                 8:03pm

-Wait let me check his number in my phone.
                                                  8:03pm

-Shall I send you the number or shall I write to him?
                                                  8:05pm

I texted her back telling her to text him, I cannot talk with any other boy who is not Fuji. My heart just won't let me, and I am happy for that. Atleast that makes me trustworthy and loyal, well he should know about this, doesn't he? Rina texts back after 2 minutes, "OK". Now all I have to do is wait, I waited patiently. Tomorrow will be a very long day, sunday, I won't be able to watch Fuji for whole day, just look at his pictures, but that is a different thing, isn't it?

I got off from the bed and walked towards the mirror. But I'm not here to admire myself, I am here to do that same ritual again. It is hopeless I know, I can't help but keep a little hope and I know I tell this everytime to my mind 'I can't help but keep a little hope'. It's ridiculous indeed, I wrote his name on the mirror with my saliva.

Sigh

That same ritual, I clicked my fingers together 7 times and folded my arms now staring at his name written by my saliva. It is disgusting, I am disgusted with myself for trying this over and over again. I huffed and sat down on the bed, picked up my phone and saw Rina texted me just now.