The Tale Of Something Else.

Chapter 6

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I returned home at around 5:06 in the taxi, thank god this time I borrowed money from Rina. She's a real helper. My step-father won't be so happy after knowing I went to Fuji's house again. I know he will not scold me nor punish me, but still, only the thought of making him upset shatters my heart. I don't know how I became like this, I still find myself hard to believe sometimes. Tomorrow is Tuesday, I believe Fuji will come to school. If he doesn't, I don't know what to do anymore. I laid on the bed staring at the ceiling, we already had the dinner and Otosan did the dishes. Its been 1 year and half month of my mother being married to him, I think its just too early that I have started being warm to him or..he is the one being warm with me.

Next day, I woke up early, went to do my morning routine - wash myself and brush the teeth - Then I went downstairs and saw Otosan already leaving home to open his book store, I grabbed the lunch box from the counter and shoved it inside my bag, I don't know what she made for me today. I sat down on the dining chair and my mother brought pancakes for me. I immediately dipped in as I was so hungry when I woke up this morning. She started doing the dishes while I continued eating.

I just wish that today Fuji comes to school, he has to be in good health till now. I looked at my mother who was back facing me, "No milk today?". She glanced at me and went back on scrubbing the bowl, "No, your otosan will bring that when he returns home", she said. I kept staring at her, she means which otosan exactly? I wanted to ask but I already know the answer and I will just look rude again. But I hate it when my mother forces me to get used to it. I hate this.

I stood up gave her my dirty plate and immediately walked out of the house, not forgetting my school bag. She pisses me off sometimes, even I know I am getting extreme uselessly, but this is nothing. I started passing from the park where I can see the toddlers playing around, they are so innocent, they don't know what is hatred and love. All they know is how to play. When I look at my mother sometimes, I feel curious that once she was also my age and she fell in love with my real father. But how can a person in love can marry another. Doesn't love matters? Is the wealth only that matters?

Regardlessly, I have her blood, I can't help but think that maybe I will do the same to Fuji when we get married. This obsessive love will end just like that. But I won't do the same, I love him too much for that. Even if it means us living in the streets and begging for little money, I am happy as long as it is to be with him. To be beside him. I saw Rina standing on the spot where we usually meet and go to school together. She was scrolling through her phone, when she saw me she waved and shoved the phone inside her bag. I approached her with a neutral smile.

"Good morning", she uttered with a smile. I nodded lightly, "Good morning", I told her and we started walking towards the school gate. Many students were already getting inside while chatting with their own friends. Me and Rina walked in silent, I glanced at her and she glanced at me. I know she's still slightly bit of upset that I didn't go library with her. "Actually I will return your money back when I get the pocket money of next month, so don't worry", I uttered softly.

She looked at me and shook her head, "Its okay, you take that, I don't need it". I can tell that she really needs it, I am quite an observer so, she was really reluctant yesterday when she gave me the money. But who wouldn't be? Its the money, not just anything simple and casual. I didn't know what to say anymore, so I walked in silence and so did she. We both reached the class and sat on our spot. I took out a book and flipped through the pages to keep myself busy. Just then the first bell rang, I looked towards the door and saw Hikaru entering. He went and casually sat on his spot leaving his side desk where Fuji sits.

I want Fuji to come today or my heart will really break, its been 3 days of me not seeing him, I will go insane like this. I glanced at my wrist watch nervously, it was already 8:33 now. I sighed and looked at the door and saw the shadow, he or noone I swear. Finally..FINALLY Fuji arrived, my heart swelled with happiness. He was holding scarf on his one hand. He directly looked at me just then, I got stunned when our eyes met. The light started coming from behind it, my heart started beating in a fast pace. I immediately looked down at my copy, not knowing if he was still looking at me. I cannot look at him for so long, its heart paining and it shivers my whole body.