Addicted

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"I'm attracted to women."  

"You what?" Nia raised an eyebrow.

"Say what? Come again?" Addie says.

"I said, I'm attracted to women. I like having sex with women. Matt .. He walked in on me having sex with my manager. We're currently separated", I informed them.

"Oh my gosh.. Dessi. So the rumors weren't.. Rumors?"

I shook my head no.

"How long have you known?" Nia questioned.

"A couple months back, Matt and I went to a strip club. He wanted to bring somebody back with us. We did. And since that night, it's like I can't help it. I just have this strong ass attraction. It's like I have to have sex.. with a woman", I explained.

"Um.. Wow. I'm just shocked. Des, you sound like you have a serious problem. An addiction, almost. It was just a fling--"

"No, Addie. I'm gay, bi sexual, whatever you want to call it. I'm telling you, I'm not straight."

..

"Desiree, you're back! What brings you here?" Angie asks.

"Um.. I came here to recant my statement. I need to do some conscious clearing."

"What are you saying?" She looked at me intently.

"The rumors were true. I'm officially coming out. I'm tired of hiding my identity", I announced.

She gasped, "wow! Well, does your husband know?"

"Yes, he's aware. We're currently separated. I just can't continue to live a lie. I have to do what makes me happy. So to avoid anymore scandals, I just came clean", I shrugged.

"Well, kudos to you! You hear that ladies and gents, Desiree McClain jumps both sides of the fence. Nothing wrong with that girl! Go ahead and broaden your horizons", Angie exclaimed.

I laughed, "thank you Angie!"

My phone had been going off since my interview at the radio station earlier.

They were mostly social media notifications. Mainly support of my coming out. Some were kind of bashing me but I don't give a fuck. Either way, I'm going to live my life. Happily.

"So did you think it was a good idea to come out on the radio without discussing it with your manager first?" Alyssa asked as soon as I opened my door, to let her in.

I sighed, rolling my eyes, "Alyssa, that was something I needed to do, for me."

"Clearly because you weren't thinking about your career", she says.

"What do you mean? If anything I just earned a lot more support. My sexual orientation shouldn't affect me modeling", I countered.

"Oh, it will. People will expect different of you now. Now they're going to want to exploit you. They're only going to want to see the sexy you", she explained.

"Is that really a bad thing? That's what I do now", I shrugged.

"Do you want to be known as a serious model or a lesbian vixen?" She raised an eyebrow.

I sighed, "can we talk about this in the morning? I have somewhere to be."

"Sure. Goodnight, Desiree."