Echoes in the Silent Shadows

The beginning

Kokichi POV

My eyes slowly open to the annoying ring of the morning announcements. I groggily get up out of my bed and head over to the stack of boxes I piled covering a part of my wall. Moving the boxes, I grab that cursed scale and step on it. 44kg??? What the hell man, still? I've been stuck in this fucking plateau since the double kill. Still, I have to log it. Walking over to my whiteboard, I flip it to its backside and start writing the date, time and the stupid number the scale provided me. I weigh myself every morning, if I didn't I think I'd go crazy, honestly. I hate that I haven't changed. But hey, at least I've not gained! Actually no, I shouldn't say that, might jinx it. I just have to try harder.

Moving on! I put on my clothes and make haste to the door to embark on my journey to the dining hall for breakfast! Wait... I can't have breakfast anymore! Yes, I'm a genius!! I've been going to all my meals to not avoid suspicion and only consuming minuscule amounts, drowning the food I eat with panta, but that's not enough. That's why I'm not losing!! I have to not eat anything! Why didn't I come to this conclusion before, am I truly that dim-witted? No one will notice that I'm gone, and even if they do they surely won't care. They all hate me, and if they didn't before they certainly do now after the shit I pulled last trial. Oh, Gonta I'm so sorry. Nahh I shouldn't think of this; I might shed a tear or two. What should I doooooo? Go to the dining hall and not eat, just to grace the others with my presence? Orrr walk around the building? Get my steps in yknow!? Or I could just stay here.. Hmmmmmmmm tough decision. Perhaps, I should walk around. Who knows?? I might be able to catch a glimpse of my beloved, amazing, sweet, caring, spectacular, splendid, supreme Shumai! Not that I have any desire to. No, not at all.

I burst my dorm door open wide, swinging my arms away from my body to mark my awakening. I don't know why I do this?? I suppose it makes me feel special, sometimes I get a bit of attention when I act out. Granted, most of the attention I get is negative, but it's better than being completely ignored. It's nice sometimes, but all the time? I'd go crazy. I arrive at the dining hall doors and begin to debate with myself if I should greet people and then leave, just so they know I exist or something I don't know. And I wanna see how they react to me too, haven't really seen them since Gonta's execution. I only saw Maki and she threatened me! How rude?!! I wasn't even doing anything, just walking to the bathrooms... whatever, I don't really care anyway. I don't want to see them anymore, I might lose control of myself and eat something, I have very little self-control its really baaaadd- I might just devour everything in sight! Can't help my big back!! I'm literally the ultimate snack enthusiast or something. I swivel on my heel to behind me and start walking around campus.