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Chapter 4. Realization

Miwa notices what is going on and realizes it's her cue to leave. "Hey, I'm feeling tired. I'm gonna head to bed", she says while walking out and going to her room."

Shoyo turns to Kageyama and grins, realizing that he finally has the opportunity he's been waiting for.

"Looks like it's just us now."

Kageyama turns to look at him, his face instantly flushing slightly at the thought of being alone with Shoyo.

"So... what did you think of the kissing scene, huh?", Shoyo questions.

Shoyo turns his gaze back to the screen, trying to sound casual. Kageyama just looks down at his lap silently for a moment before responding quietly.

"What do you mean? It was just a scene. I don't have an opinion on it."

Shoyo chuckles quietly at Kageyama's stubborn reply.

"Oh c'mon, you must have some thoughts about it. It was pretty romantic, wasn't it? Made your heart flutter a little bit, didn't it?"

Kageyama's face flushes further at Shoyo's last question. He can feel his heart racing in his chest.

"What are you talking about? No it didn't. It's just a stupid scene, it doesn't mean anything."

"You're blushing," Shoyo suddenly said, his voice low and teasing. "Do you have a crush on one of the characters or something?"

I shot him a look. "What? No way. It's just hot in here."

Shoyo just smirked. "It's really not that hot, though. Or are you blushing because you think one of those guys is cute?"

I tried to hide my face in my hands, but it was no use. Shoyo was relentless, and every comment he made just made me more embarrassed. "Shut up, I'm not blushing. That scene was just... it was just dumb, okay?"

Shoyo leaned in a little closer, whispering. "Sure, definitely. Because the thought of two guys kissing doesn't do anything to you, right?"

My heart was racing so fast, I thought it might burst. I felt completely overwhelmed. "What do you want me to say? Yes, fine, it made me feel something okay?! I don't know what it was, but it just... it made my heart race a little, okay?!"

Shoyo's eyes lit up. "Ha! I knew it! I knew you wouldn't be able to deny it forever. So, what exactly did it make you feel?"

I groaned and covered my face with my hands. "I don't know! It was just so... intimate, you know? How are you so chill about it?"

Shoyo laughed. "Because I've already figured out my own feelings. It's cute seeing you squirm, though."

I looked at him, trying to wrap my head around what he was saying. "Wait... you mean to say you're already... you have..." I swallowed hard.

Shoyo grinned. "Yeah, I'm pretty sure about my feelings. And yes, I like guys. So I guess that's no big surprise, right?"

I stared at him, trying to process everything. "So you're... you're gay?" I asked quietly.

Shoyo nodded, looking relaxed. "Yep, pretty much. I like guys and girls, so I guess that makes me bisexual. What about you? How are you feeling?"

I sat there, stunned. I never really thought about it before, but now I was totally confused. "Me? I... I don't know. I mean, I've never really thought about it. I guess... I liked that kiss scene a lot. And the more I see two guys being close, the more I feel...normal? I never had crushes on girls before so... I think I might be... gay..."

Shoyo's face softened into a warm smile. "Hey, it's totally okay. That's what it's like. So... how do you feel about me?"

I couldn't breathe. The question threw me off, and I struggled to make sense of my feelings. I looked away, unable to meet his gaze. "What do you mean how do I feel about you? You're my friend, that's how I feel..."

Shoyo's smirk came back, and he moved closer. "Oh, really? I can't be more than just a friend to you?"

The thought of Shoyo being more than a friend made my heart race even more. I felt totally out of my depth. "W-well... no, I-I mean... you can... you can be more... I- I mean... you are my best friend..."

Shoyo's grin widened. "Your best friend, huh? So... let me ask you something again. Hypothetically, if I wanted to kiss you right now, how would that make you feel?"