IN MY SOLITUDE

GOALS

Being the only child has it's perks. You get everything to yourself, you don't have to share, you get all the attention. But in my case, it's the worse thing ever. I still get everything to myself, i just don't get the attention from my parents. They work day in and day out and don't even spare time for their own daughter.
Trust me, I'm grateful for all they're doing for me and for all they've gained from work, considering we live in a massive house and i go to a well known private high school.
But sometimes, i need someone to actually be there for me when i go through various emotions or when i'm top in my class. I need someone to remind me how proud they are of me, but instead i come home to an empty house every single day. Sometimes, i believe they actually forget i exist.
When i was younger, mum always had time for me. If dad was away we would go out with her digital camera so she could take pictures. She had always had a passion for photography. But ever since she decided she wanted to start working she forgot about it. She forgot about me.

Dad on the other hand never really cared about being there for me. All he cared about were my grades and my piano lessons. When i told him i wanted to figure skate he said to put it out of my mind but after much begging he finally let me. However, he never came to watch me when i performed. Mum comes to see them once in a while but she would leave before the winners were even announced.

For a long time i have been alone, stuck with myself, in my head, my own little world.

Girls at school never liked me. I was too boring for them. That's until i met cassie, my best friend, in freshman year of high school.
Cassie is the complete oppsite version of me. She's blonde and has the prettiest set of blue eyes while i just have both dark eyes and hair. She's always been the pretty one, I'm not jealous about it though, keeps the boys away.
Cassie loves to have fun, everyone loves her, sometimes i wonder how we're even friends till i remember she practically forced herself into my life. I definitely don't regret it. We met   for the first time at figure skating try outs and we became closer when we became team mates. Cassie isn't really serious about figure skating, she just does it for fun but she's really good. I on the other hand want to make it into the Olympics figure skating team, papa doesn't know about this yet though.

This is my final year in high school and i want to make the best of it. I'm going to work harde and train harder. Maybe that way dad  will notice me.